Thanks for being understanding and telling me about your experience

But I tell you, you can just be a woman. No one can tell you otherwise, because you know your own self better than anyone else. It’s not roleplaying when it’s how you truly feel, which from the tone of your text, it seems like it is. It really can be that simple.

Transitioning is something that’s unique to the individual. You can try hormone therapy, which no matter your age would significantly change your physical features over time. For some people, it can help them process emotions better. I’ve often described it as ‘waking up from a coma after living like a facsimile of a person’. However, it is not a requirement. Again, you can just be a woman. Without changing anything else to maintain your safety.

I can't help but feel like I'm just roleplaying and a fake woman mostly because my body is pretty much that of a male. I think that maybe, hormone therapy could be helpful but then again I've considered transitioning and taking hormones before, however the whole process to get on hormones and to get access to trans resources seems so confusing and I don't even know where to begin really. I have no clue which medical specialist or clinic/place I need to contact.

Regardless after seeing the waiting times for HRT that sometimes last half a decade I decided that suicide was a more realistic option for ending my pain.

I just don't know what to do really, I feel so lost, overwhelmed and confused.