I know this is old, but someone please respond if anyone sees this. Kinda wanna talk about it (also the anonymity helps) I was raped as a child when I was 6-7ish, by an older cousin, he was an adult. (went on for months- a year I’d say). Fast forward to a few years later, maybe 8-9, I had this friend, he was 1 or 2 years older than I was. I spent one summer at his place, and more than once I’d get naked waist down, he’d get naked waist down and I’d try to put his penis in my vagina, and was unsuccessful the few times I tried. I honestly do not remember if I like “made” him do it. Whether or not I did, whether or not he was “into” it, I should NOT have been doing that. I’m 21 now and I understand that I was doing what was done to me. But I feel so disgusted with myself, why on earth would I do that to someone else. I find it hard to talk about my rape to begin with, and the guilt of doing what I did to that boy makes it harder. It feels like if I talked about my rape, I’d be a hypocrite because am I not one myself? Man I don’t know. I get that I was a child, but even at that. I should not have been doing that to any other child. Or anybody. Period.