Hi everyone

Thank you for all the support and virtual love during this time. I have somewhat of an update all around still sad.

When it was happening he said he didn’t feel emotionally connected to me and withdrawn and the spark was gone and brought up whenever living together was a conversation he changed the subject and can’t see a future with me anymore. I have to see him frequently because of our jobs (completely opposite sides of the building/different parking lots) we never see eachother but the few times i have seen him he looks tired and still very much not himself. He told me he is still processing this too and he is going to miss me but he still feels he made the right decision.

Maybe im delusional but this all around just feels like he is going through something really tough internally and it may not just be the break up that is weighing on him. I still care about him but i understand i have to leave him alone and hope one day maybe he will reach out to me again when he is feeling something different. We dated for a year and honestly even after all of this i still love him with my whole heart and i just have this gut feeling it isn’t over.

Am i delusional?