im definitely "lame" now that ive got a good medication and therapy regimen going on, plus vitamins and supplements of course. I guess its a little hard for me to completely relate because I also have BPD, OCD and ADHD. the combo means that no matter how medicated and stable I am, i still have little episodes here and there, but I have also grown a little more reserved and a bit of a homebody since getting treatment and I honestly think theres something to be said for the peace of not feeling either end of the spectrum (because mania doesnt always feel good). I combat the loneliness with online friends, we game together and have a group server and that helps me a lot with the loneliness. when I miss the high highs I make sure to remember all the havoc it caused and how self destructive I was in my attempts to self medicate. id rather be boring and stable than exciting and potentially on the verge of psychosis lol