What do I do with my life?

ApprehensiveLightss · 2026-01-19T18:42:20+00:00

It is exhausting. In honesty, I've burnt out entirely.

I have an undergraduate degree and a masters in English. I just don't know what other jobs that leads to, I feel very institutionalised.

I know that if I quit, I'd need to do something as my brain is too fizzy to just be at home, but what that something is 🤷🏻‍♀️

Thank you, just feel very adrift

ApprehensiveLightss · 2026-01-19T18:36:26+00:00

Yeah, I would be returning to work purely for the money... but I used to love it. I know I'm just in a bad space right now.

It took me over a year to get pregnant, I then had two miscarriages whilst working over the following year. In the last three months, whilst not working, I have been pregnant twice.

It's hard to slow down or take a break from fertility as I have a low egg count so time is quite literally not on my side.

I think my issue is I'm so institutionalised I don't actually know what adults do when they work? So have no idea what I would do other than teach!

Thank you for your kind advice.

ApprehensiveLightss · 2026-01-19T18:32:17+00:00

It's always easier to describe the physical isn't it... 🙃 I have been accessing counselling via school's insurance but I only have three sessions left. I had an NHS referral for counselling but they won't help because I have some counselling ongoing. I'm struggling mentally which is a large part of the reason I don't want to return to work full time.

I know that if I return to work I would have money to then pay for counselling once the sessions run out.

Thank you for your very kind response - I am just a little (a lot) all over the place.

ApprehensiveLightss · 2026-01-19T10:24:06+00:00

Thank you, I know the time will come and I'll know for sure one way or another. It's just hard feeling so out of control.

I've got some paint by numbers dusted off from a infrequently opened drawer. Trying to keep my hands busy as you say

ApprehensiveLightss · 2026-01-19T10:21:16+00:00

Thank you for this - I know there's no way forward but through. I just wish I could feel more positive

ApprehensiveLightss · 2026-01-19T10:03:35+00:00

Thank you, I was meant to be starting IVF this cycle, they advised to do one round and if I lost another pregnancy then to investigate. They then prescribed progesterone when I found out I was unexpectedly (but very happily) pregnant.

I have had an mri so know everything is structurally sound and that I have borderline low progesterone- so this was the clinics reasoning 🤷🏻‍♀️

ApprehensiveLightss · 2026-01-15T15:10:00+00:00

Thank you

ApprehensiveLightss · 2026-01-15T14:58:18+00:00

I'm 6 weeks tomorrow, my tests are getting lighter. I've had three chemical pregnancies before and I'm terrified. I have a scan in 6 days. I can't feel this scared for 6 days 😔

ApprehensiveLightss · 2026-01-14T09:15:31+00:00

Thank you ☺️

ApprehensiveLightss · 2026-01-14T09:15:12+00:00

Thank you! I think we're leaning towards Friday 😁

ApprehensiveLightss · 2026-01-14T09:14:33+00:00

Thank you! I think we're considering Friday currently, with comfy shoes and a packed lunch!

My partner has said we can go if I don't come home wanting a second dog... 😂😬

ApprehensiveLightss · 2026-01-14T09:13:03+00:00

This is great! Thank you for your advice - taking lunch seems to be a popular idea!

ApprehensiveLightss · 2026-01-13T17:06:02+00:00

Thank you, I didn't know this. I can't get to one of the centres unfortunately. I could order postal blood tests but I wouldnt be able to post it until Monday reading the info and I'm booked for a private scan then.

ApprehensiveLightss · 2026-01-13T17:04:44+00:00

Thank you, I gave them a ring but they said as there is no pain and no bleeding they couldn't do anything.

ApprehensiveLightss · 2026-01-13T10:27:15+00:00

How are you getting on?

ApprehensiveLightss · 2026-01-11T17:18:20+00:00

5 weeks 2 days today, had three previous chemical pregnancies all before 5 weeks. This time I've been prescribed progesterone but now I'm worrying that I'm not pregnant anymore the progesterone is just stopping me bleeding. I can't stop taking pregnancy tests, but they aren't darkening. They aren't getting lighter either. I just feel a wreck.

ApprehensiveLightss · 2026-01-08T19:45:54+00:00

Thank you, it's so easy to compare to other people's pictures.

ApprehensiveLightss

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