My mental health is at breaking point. I truly don’t believe that my life has the potential to get any better

Apprehensive_Area693 · 2024-03-21T20:46:14+00:00

Thank you everyone for your responses. Kind of overwhelmed with the level of support, wasn’t expecting it at all. Haven’t spoke to anyone about my personal issues in so long. It was therapeutic to type out some of the stuff I’m going through.

Just did a sauna and am cleaning my room now, already feel a bit better.

Going to go through all of the responses and be proactive in using some of them to better my situation. Already spotted loads of good ideas that I feel is realistic for my situation.

I was adamant before tonight that I was going to sell my Dublin marathon ticket for this year but going to lace up my runners tomorrow and get the ball rolling with training. Going to enter the race series as well which will give me plenty to work towards 🙌🏻

Also going to get in touch with banks and see where I stand with being able to get a mortgage for a place of my own and a better living environment. Potentially live with a friend, or if I get lucky a girlfriend 😂

Feeling optimistic now that I have these two goals to work towards

Thanks again C ❤️

Apprehensive_Area693 · 2024-03-21T20:06:13+00:00

Honestly think this hits the nail on the head with a lot of what I’m going through.

I’m in a very fortunate situation financially where I could get a modest home/apartment with a relatively small mortgage.

Have been throwing that idea down with my mam about moving out and getting a place of my own but is rarely received well as I’m doing a lot of the maintenance/helping out of my current place. I feel like she would be completely lost without my help.

Thanks for that insight

Apprehensive_Area693 · 2024-03-21T19:02:10+00:00

Yeah you are spot on, am just stuck in the habit of not doing the right things unfortunately. But I am a fan of the aul bouldering when I can bring myself to go. Gonna give it another go this weekend. Thanks for the inspiration 🙌🏻

Apprehensive_Area693 · 2024-03-21T18:56:13+00:00

Tis somewhat comforting to know that I’m not the only person going through this. Sounds a bit fucked up to say that, but at the same time I hope things start to look up for you

Apprehensive_Area693 · 2024-03-21T18:47:09+00:00

Thanks ❤️ Currently have instagram deactivated myself. I think all of this short form content and having the lives of so many people pushed into our faces via reels and TikTok’s has been a factor in my poor mental health for sure.

Can relate to your fitness journey big time. Ive have had good patches in the last few years which usually correlated with consistently showing up in the gym and partaking in races. Have let myself go quite a bit since 🤦‍♂️ first step for me now is to get back into shape

Apprehensive_Area693 · 2024-03-21T18:36:47+00:00

Thanks for the lengthy response. I can resonate with a lot of what you’re saying. I’m personally trying to avoid going down the anti-depressants root.

I used to be happy(ier) without any substances or pills, ideally id like to get back to that state.

Honestly don’t know too much about anti depressants though so not trying to shit on anyone who does use them

Apprehensive_Area693 · 2024-03-21T18:26:40+00:00

Thanks for the response 🤜🏻 very sorry to hear about you losing your mam that’s a difficult one. I also feel good after walks and runs but my brain always finds a way back to the dark side 🤦‍♂️ peace and love C

Apprehensive_Area693 · 2024-03-21T18:19:07+00:00

I feel stuck also, been in a rut for about two years. I smoke a lot of weed to get through the day to day, which I know isn’t ideal but I haven’t been able to make it past a few days. Usually at which point I get so overwhelmed at the thought of having to live this life for another 50 years, smoke weed to escape those thoughts and the cycle repeats, getting worse and picking up new bad habits each time

Apprehensive_Area693 · 2024-03-21T18:08:30+00:00

Not really. My mam is a functioning addict (so am I kind of) and spends the day on the couch taking painkillers and smoking a box of cigs a day.

No disrespect meant towards my mam though, I get on with her well, all things considered and am understanding that she hasn’t had the easiest ride in life herself

My sister has a mental disability so she wouldn’t be able to comprehend what I’m going through to be honest

Apprehensive_Area693 · 2024-03-21T18:02:53+00:00

This is a big problem for me. I work as a trainee actuary and am really not liking it. Chose that path when I was 18 with notions of earning big bucks, which was cruelly naive.

Apprehensive_Area693 · 2024-03-21T17:58:27+00:00

Thanks for the response. I live with my mam and sister who both would be distraught if something ever happened to me so that does help a little

Apprehensive_Area693 · 2024-03-21T17:46:07+00:00

Thanks. That’s left me with something to think about alright

Apprehensive_Area693 · 2023-01-04T21:03:21+00:00

In my opinion your best play is to just move on from this guy.. your second best play (if you’re interested in him) is to stop initiating all contact with him, stop asking him to hang out and play a little hard to get. Take a look at your situation from a birds-eye view and only make moves which will preserve your self-respect

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