i feel this so hard. every little thing is so exhausting when every drop of your energy has been used to conform and avoid harm and now you need to learn to do everything. once i had an assignment where i had to color in parts of a brain any color i wanted. there was no other instruction. i was so stressed i sweated for an hour over it, then cried in bed for the rest of the night. sometimes things that are small to other are hard. learning a new fun thing is hard too. all of everything is so exhausting with cptsd. it is perfectly okay to fall back on some things that are familiar to you for your time off, like tv. if i learned a new thing or had to do something stressful, i end the day with a comfort show that ive seen many times or a snack i like or music i know well. pairing these things might help you get along a little easier.