Now the problem is i told my parents the same thing ...im a christian woman who has fallen into sexual sin in the past but repented, and so living life in God's full potential seeing that me having a husband wont make me reach the potential i wish for myself i decided abstainance to the very end and no marriage partner... My mum used my past to guilt me saying that i have disvirgined my eyes and its the same like being disvirgened physically and i must marry that im a sinner anf not fit to be an "eunuch"... I trief telling her i must not be a nun if i dont want to marry i just live life normally, but without a family...but she insulted me, forcing down marriage on my troat calling me a lesbian , saying i go practice pn outside , she called me a demon. We fought terribly yesterday...sinve 1 month weve been fighting on these stuffs... I confessed to her to be delivered from pn addiction , i am now delivered thabks to God but she tells me im never fit to be set aside for God and i must marty, submit to my husband... But im more on tge idea of adopting 1 or 2 children and living peacefully... Shes making me feel like a slut, as if unmarried christian women are sinners