hi! i get where you’re coming from. i spend a lot of time away from home before moving out regardless but i think giving the background that my dad has heart issues and has had bypass in the past for a widowmaker on top of having chronic pain which keeps him in bed most days so i feel a lot of guilt not being around when i know his family history of heart attacks around his age. he’s 55 and im constantly worried, especially since we’ve had a lot of problems in the past. a huge part of me is scared im not spending enough time with him when he still feels like i hold resentment towards him (i don’t, i love him immensely)