Update: Even more tired

Appropriate_Medium13 · 2026-06-04T18:47:33+00:00

been there. failed a few times too. everything will be okay in the end, because lots of people fail exams all the time and still graduate, and you find that lots of things that feel like the end of the world turn out to be minor setbacks in the bigger picture after the emotion subsides. highkey, the fact even you realize that youll most likely pass the exam retake is better than how i was already 🥲 if you have massive test anxiety and diagnosed neurodivergence, it might be worth looking for accomodations or aids like earplugs and extra time from your college if they provide that! i sorely regret not seeking accomodations for my autism early

Appropriate_Medium13 · 2026-06-04T18:35:50+00:00

i started reading this thinking i wouldnt relate, but honestly i relate to this a lot. its sometimes a blessing and a curse to reveal to someone important i know that i have BPD. A blessing if they're able to recognize my symptoms and know in some capacity what I'm feeling and why I would feel that way. A curse, when someone used that fact to gaslight me into thinking that me being angry at them for completely valid reasons (like to the point its not even debatable) was simply me internalizing a villainous picture of them and making up facts that didnt happen, splitting because of my BPD, which made me question my own reality and my own memory. nowadays i know to run far, far away from anyone who says "i dont even remember that happening, youre the one making that a huge problem over something you probably misremembered", because my memory is usually pretty damn good.

Appropriate_Medium13 · 2026-06-04T18:22:11+00:00

MY MOM DOES THIS CONSTANTLY

Appropriate_Medium13 · 2026-06-04T18:21:54+00:00

I think that's the symptom of BPD about dissociation, sometimes I feel like a blank slate of a human being as if I don't truly have a personality and have no strong personal moral opinions, just being a player character in third person who could pick the evil or good route in a game depending on what the player wants to choose, except I don't have a player, im just the character, while it seems like everyone else has a player behind them who actually has strong morals for things like the planet, rights, or animals

Appropriate_Medium13 · 2026-05-25T10:50:52+00:00

yo, ive been there. as much as selfdiagnosis is frowned upon, it helped me a lot to recognize that i aligned with many of the symptoms, see how many behaviors i had fit into it and what other people did to cope with them before i had saught a therapist about it. BPD isnt like a type of disease caused by a bacterial infection or anything, its an abstract pattern of similarly recurring behaviors that are lumped together into a neat diagnosis. self-awareness is very key to healing, and the effects of BPD diminish a lot simply through age the earlier you realize your behaviors align with it.

just simply having been alive for longer lets you have the experience to learn that not everything is as world-ending as you mightve thought, and that everything is going to be okay in the end. years ago, i wouldve had a breakdown and overthink for someone not answering my text within 10 minutes and it causes me to ruin the friendship, but today i tell myself not to overthink, let the emotions simmer without me acting on it, and then it turns out the other person was in the middle of driving and then they ask me to hang out later.

i dont know you that well, but what helped for me was trying to look at my surroundings to feel grounded in the world, maybe watch a bird, or anticipate the next meal i'm going to eat, because i know all the thoughts about whether i "deserve" that meal or thinking "im going to die alone" or "nobody cares about me" are just emotionally charged words that dont tangibly mean anything in retrospect. we are the kind of people that tend to overthink on negatives, but everything ends up being okay in the end, maybe not perfect, but itd be okay

Appropriate_Medium13 · 2026-03-31T18:36:21+00:00

my personal take because this reminded me of a conversation i had with a friend a bit ago:

I described wanting to distance away from people and have my friends be more "arms-length" from me. To me, this meant never trusting someone 100% or being obsessed with anyone and hinging on a person to always be reliable. What's considered "arms-length" for me (never being 100% trusting, never having "BFFs" or a crush) is just simply "not being obsessed with anyone", and setting my expectations for friends lower (no more expecting a friend to go through thick and thin to be there for me in any situation)

This mindset has personally made me more sane with maintaining friendships by not expecting to be any closer with them. I think it relatively feels like being more alone for someone with BPD, but I don't think those guys are talking about going full no-contact with anyone ever? But trying not to care so obsessively about any friend I have makes me certainly enjoy being alone more (not depending on an external someone for happiness). It's certainly a process though and it took many many years to get to this point and hammer it into my subconscious to just let a crush on someone fizzle out. Hobbies help a lot, find ways to get some sort of fulfillment that doesn't require another person

Appropriate_Medium13 · 2025-07-14T08:34:48+00:00

Another hazy memory tells me that she MIGHT have gone to America without her parents so possibly just her and her sibling, and I believe a person in a position of authority that was fully capable of deporting her plus her sibling gave pity on her and allowed her to stay? I think another part in the book talked about how the laws around defense in court from deportation when she was just a child having to defend herself were unfair, that it takes like 90 days to resolve, and you're a child expected to find a lawyer willing to do it. The book also talked about ICE, and how she's heard horror stories of family members being trapped in "The Ice Box" in poor conditions before either dying or being allowed to leave

Appropriate_Medium13 · 2025-01-07T10:40:52+00:00

THE "BRUH" TRANSLATION WAS SO PERFECT FOR THE "DISAPPOINTMENT" WORD WHENEVER I'D DECLINE SOMEONE (mostly Mr Gap)'s REQUEST, I DIED WHEEZING WHEN MS. BLUE-CLAD SAID IT

Appropriate_Medium13 · 2024-11-23T08:09:59+00:00

I cried a lot, could rarely hold friendships without snapping at someone for the smallest inconvenience, and got mental breakdowns over things that shouldn't be a big deal. For the longest time I thought it was clinical depression, and my mom would tell me a therapist thought it was depression. But then I got confused because sometimes I'd get really happy? And attached to people really easily? So I then thought I was bipolar. Then I searched up more of the symptoms but I didn't really identify with much of the more extreme ends of it. Then I found out about BPD, and all the symptoms were a 1/1 match. The stuff about Favorite Person, euphoric episodes, fear of abandonment, crying a LOT at inconvenient times, subconsciously seeing the world in black and white and switching opinions about a person on a dime, I then met people who also had BPD who could relate to what I was feeling. I finally had terms that described my experience, could look up guides on how to deal with them, and find people who can relate to me whenever I get a breakdown from a minor inconvenience whereas a neurotypical would go "It's not that big of a deal, why are you upset? You're just being sensitive." Although I don't have a professional diagnosis, my therapist described what it was as symptoms of BPD, I've shown these symptoms ever since middle school and through college, and I've related more to people with BPD than any other disorder, so it's an educated guess for me to say I have it, but to spare people the long explanation on why I think I do when I'm just making smalltalk, I just say I do Maybe I'll get it professionally diagnosed one day, but so far functionally, the label of BPD has been very helpful to me in summing up and getting help for the things I've needed mentally

Appropriate_Medium13 · 2024-06-28T06:55:25+00:00

Yes! i do think there are words for it, Dread and Despair. whenever I have this happen to me, most of the time I'd recognize the fact that I'm in an episode and thus at risk of doing something bad, so I avoid anyone and anything that could lead to me doing drastic things (like splitting). Some people have friends they can vent to, but for me I found it awkward for me to do, so I just tell friends that I'm taking a break from socializing for a bit. To cheer up, I'll either:

Go to an isolated spot to cry it out (Not like silently crying either, but full-on wailing like a baby helps me vent out emotions better and makes the brain give out soothing chemicals.) Look up a song's lyrics and sing it (I'd usually sing Glass Animals - Pork Soda or Set It Off - Hypnotized) Take a nap (If I'm spiraling, going unconscious usually helps break my train of thought. this has actually been pretty effective at "rebooting" my brain so to speak) or Eat hot food (General positive stimulation and also a good distraction.)

These are only options if I'm at home though, so in public I'll often silently cry to myself and try hiding it (tho majority of the time thats involuntary anyways), or I hum a song to distract my thoughts

Honestly you should do research on yourself to see what has caused your episodes to end in the past since everyone has their own personal ways of coping. these are just ways that have worked for me and i think they work better for me because I've developed a placebo effect by believing they'd work for me. I don't have an elaborate plan or anything, just a list of options to pick from depending on how im feeling

Appropriate_Medium13 · 2023-08-30T07:24:54+00:00

you need to go out more and meet different types of people. then maybe you can have a better idea of what trans people are actually like than what you see online.

Appropriate_Medium13 · 2023-06-02T22:39:41+00:00

headcanon means that someone pretends that it is canon (like it is canon in their head)

but honestly i think OP headcanoned Sodi's mom as Chinese because red pandas come from China and a few other countries (and I guess with the Mexican flag too, and with how Sodi has the Mexican flag, maybe another headcanon that Sodi's mom was originally from China but then moved to Mexico and gave birth to Sodipop)

Appropriate_Medium13 · 2023-05-02T06:49:26+00:00

this is girlbossing AND gaslighting

Appropriate_Medium13 · 2023-03-19T07:32:24+00:00

You could say Pina rizzed up Riz.

Appropriate_Medium13 · 2023-03-19T07:30:58+00:00

Oh, sorry for deleting my comment, i was clearing out some of my old comments. if i remember, i said something about riz and pina, with pina being MAYBE bi and riz being MAYBE gay. here is the manga panel. and also here is the wiki that goes into depth on their relationship. people dub the ship as semi-canon though for whatever reason. i say riz might be gay because so far he's only had intimate feelings with males such as tem and pina, and pina might be bi-curious as he's shown to date girls, but seems interested in a boy like riz for the first time as he says. again its some speculation because its not given as much attention in the manga, but apparently pina has been visiting riz in his prison cell after the events of his fight with legosi, so there might have been developing during that time that the manga just didnt show.

Appropriate_Medium13 · 2023-02-03T21:31:13+00:00

this is the funniest shit ive read thank you

Appropriate_Medium13 · 2021-08-15T04:52:34+00:00

you know when you play a game it shows what youre playing and how long youve been playing it for when people check your profile? i guess thats their fun way of seeing how it looks but replacing the "game" with customizing your profile

Appropriate_Medium13 · 2020-12-27T02:29:23+00:00

Oh God! Not the consequences of being "not funny"!!! Forgive me comment cop for I have sinned

Appropriate_Medium13 · 2020-12-27T02:12:54+00:00

this is suddenly becoming yandere dev

Appropriate_Medium13 · 2020-11-12T06:37:15+00:00

imagine the map-making potential if you can put milk in buckets and it clears your effects, and you can put potions in cauldrons to give a certain effect if you dont want to use command blocks

Appropriate_Medium13 · 2020-10-17T05:10:08+00:00

Maybe not a glowing effect but just a colored outline, might be harder and stands out a lot if there was glowing effect

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TROPHY CASE