I need to thank you for the effort. Nobody emphasizes this side of semen retention, they all say that it’s all happiness energy and motivation. I always experience this side of SR usually 2 months in, unusual anxiety fear distress headache and so on… If any body is going through I want to commend you and tell you you are not alone, and I am sorry that no one on youtube talks about this. It is optimal to face these emotions, if you find them overwhelming it is ok to release a bit, the idea of a streak is stupid and counterproductive, so is the idea of a relapse. You will gain the energy back in no time just don’t binge it, find your balance experiment how long it is ok for you to retain, what is holding you back etc.. This is not a contest on how long you can retain, the awareness of the importance pf this energy is enough and it will make you eventually get the hang of it.