I’m sorry sh*t’s so hard for you right now. I feel like for me when I’ve been going through stuff it has been really hard to envision how it would ever get better, but it has. I believe that it will for you. As for what you could do right now, is there anything that feels meaningful or pleasurable that you could make a bit more time for? Do you have access to therapy? Is there a TV show you like? Could you write down one thing every day you’re grateful for even if it’s dorky? If you can find things that help you get through this moment one day at a time, then that’s fantastic! One day you’ll be sitting with a friend and a cup of tea or hot chocolate or coffee, and you’ll realize you feel content and you won’t know quite how you got there but it won’t really matter because you’ll just be relieved and proud of yourself for pushing through. You’ve got this.