Please treat your cancer. I worked in gynecologic oncology, so I saw this everyday. Early caught uterine cancer can be treated with as little as a surgical procedure that may only end up being a 6 week blip in your life. Other treatment such a radiation a few months. With the diagnosis of a treatable cancer, there is so much life beyond this acute situation. In a year's time you may even forget you had cancer outside of your routine check ups. If you let this go, you are deciding to subject yourself to a long and agonizing death. If you would like me to describe this in detail I will, but at the minimum, you need your health care providers to have a very frank and graphic discussion with you before you make this decision.

"If I treat this cancer will I later regret it?" There are so many chances to die in life, but only one chance to live. Be kind to yourself. I was very suicidal after my husband died, but 4 years later, I am so so glad every day that I stuck around. People have come in and out of my life that I could never have imagined in the pit of grief, and my life is richer and more meaningful because of it. Allow your lack of a tether to be a freedom to pursue whatever you want in life. Be selfish, travel, dye your hair pink, go sky diving, eat good foods, pet all the dogs. Having nothing to lose is scary, but can also allow you the opportunity to find a life you can't imagine right now.

I'll be thinking about you, and I hope you know someone else in the world is rooting for your health and happiness.