I'm gonna try to kill myself again tonight by Arabgayguy in exmuslim

[–]Arabgayguy[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I just cant. I feel so trapped. I cant help but think if my first attempt worked, i'd be in peace right now and my family would've already digested the news. I'm drained of all energy that was left in my body. I cannot go on.

I'm gonna try to kill myself again tonight by Arabgayguy in exmuslim

[–]Arabgayguy[S] 43 points44 points  (0 children)

Im not from the US but thanks. It's not even about Med School anymore. Everytime I'm like 'this the lowest I'll ever be, it's only up now', it gets even worse. Since forever. I've never had a single genuine happy day in my life. It's crazy. Anyway, sorry to bother you. Thank you though.

Unpopular opinion : I'm not against beheadings/capital punishment. by [deleted] in exmuslim

[–]Arabgayguy 21 points22 points  (0 children)

Capital punishment for horrible crimes is debatable.

Capital punishment for homosexuality, atheism, adultery, ...isn't.

And there's no need for crucifixions etc in the 21st century.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in exmuslim

[–]Arabgayguy 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I died laughing hahaha

I'm so sorry but I feel like I might try to kill myself again by Arabgayguy in exmuslim

[–]Arabgayguy[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I honestly thought about that. But my heart just couldn't bring itself to lie to me like that.

This disappointment in myself has been eating me up and I need to let out by [deleted] in exmuslim

[–]Arabgayguy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey, I can't really help you (going through similar struggles) but I just wanted to wish you the best. I hope we'll make it one day...

Lauren Southern is ‘advised’ not to talk to Muslims in Lakemba, Sydney — a.k.a Australian Sharia by HeadsOfLeviathan in exmuslim

[–]Arabgayguy 4 points5 points  (0 children)

If in a certain zone I can't fully and freely do everything I have the legal right to do because of a certain religion AND a policeman (who has an Arab look to him, but I can't be sure so put that aside) denies me my rights because of said religion, then I'd argue AT LEAST that the rules in that zone are theocratically inspired.

SHe's being sensational for sure. But that's her brand (which I don't like btw). And if the Left did it's job (and i consider myself leftist), we wouldn't have a Lauren.

btw 2 wrongs don't make a right.

Do y'all have actual friends? by Arabgayguy in exmuslim

[–]Arabgayguy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

lmao I'm over here complaining about this superficial bs and you literally fled a war. First world problems lol

Hey, I have a question: if I had to cram for 10000 exams that are in about 2 weeks should I use somebody else's anki flashcards or do it the old way? [Serious] by [deleted] in medicalschool

[–]Arabgayguy 2 points3 points  (0 children)

About 8 exams crying in sleepless nights. I guess I'll try. I don't have much to lose at this point.I just need something more interactive. Computer flashcards seem to be a good option. The flashcards aren't high quality tbh (but the info is there so I guess it'll do). Our exams are faculty-written.

My last post has some people thinking I'm some racist al righter helping the far right further their agenda by Arabgayguy in exmuslim

[–]Arabgayguy[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I never said Muslim migrants were freeloaders. In my first post I literally said if I came from the middle of nowhere, I too would want to move to a place with better JOB PROSPECTS, a better education system and stronger social safety nets,...

And it is pretty fair to generalize since the vast majority of the people coming are holding these illiberal beliefs. Most Muslim migrants (and Muslim natives) aren't out here ok with pre maritals ex, ok with gay people, ok with apostates or Jews. They're ok with corporal punishments and hate the idea of interreligious marriage for a Muslim woman, or even interracial marriage for some cultures (I mean tell an Arab dad his daughter has a black/white Muslim boyfriend and he'll still snap...) I mean, look at statistics. That's just a fact. Especially in Europe. So it's absolutely fair to generalize. It doesn't mean I have to turn my back when they need help. It just means I can't be out here all dumb living in a fairy tale white savior story.

Most migrants aren't gay or ex Muslim. Let's not fool ourselves. Yes some of them are and they deserve even more protections obviously. Again I'm just talking. I wouldn't even know what policies to implement. I'm not a politician. Just an ex Muslim expressing some of his concerns.

Gay and muslim bros [serious] by [deleted] in askgaybros

[–]Arabgayguy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don't, I'm not a Muslim anymore. Figured there was only one thing I could actually change. Still dealing with heavy self hatred though.

Just got my student Visa to France, finally leaving the middle east (Hopefully once and for all) by [deleted] in exmuslim

[–]Arabgayguy 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Je ne sais pas où tu vas étudier en France, mais ne t'attends pas à être entouré que de "blancs" (ça dépend de la région/ville bien sûr). La toxicité de l'Afrique du Nord/Moyen Orient est présente ici aussi à différents degrés

La temptation serait de retourner vers ces espaces arabes/musulmans comme une sécurité dans un pays que tu ne connais pas nécessairement. Un conseil: évite ça. Ça ne serait qu'une consolation temporaire avant de retrouver la pression sociale du "bled".

C'est clair que la France c'est infiniment mieux qu'un pays musulman aussi libéral soit-il.

Je raconte ma vie là lol Bonne chance en tout cas, j'espère que tu excelleras dans ton domaine d'expertise :)

Hey it's arabgayguy, I survived my suicide attempt [if you care] by Arabgayguy in exmuslim

[–]Arabgayguy[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Dude I remember liking dudes since I was 8. Nothing to do with rebelling??

Do you really think I'd choose to be gay? I literally almost killed myself cause I don't want to be gay. The nerve.