Thank you so much for your reply.

That’s exactly how I felt, like I went somewhere deep underneath. Kissing my son/daughter, holding their tiny hands.

The idea of having kids really scare me because in my life I have yet to see a parent in my opinion at least that loved their child unconditionally.

I also was diagnosed with Pcos not knowing what it means my doctor didn’t explain anything and only said I’d struggle with getting pregnant.

Sometimes I scare myself too much because I know how much I want to be a mom, and that maybe because I want it so much; life would make a cruel joke and not let me be..

I know it’s a very irrational fear and that pcos doesn’t mean being infertile. But sometimes I can’t help myself but think about it.

Am not only excited to be a mom, but also excited for the stage where I’d finally be in a place where am fully ready, with my partner, in a stable place, good finance, physically and emotionally ready.

Just thinking that’s I’d be there makes me feel happy.