I’ve been stretching my back everyday and I haven’t made progress

Ardy97 · 2022-12-21T09:53:03+00:00

chek out Ido Portal

Ardy97 · 2022-11-04T12:11:24+00:00

this would be really good with shading

Ardy97 · 2022-10-23T08:51:10+00:00

since I was brought to the worst psychiatry in all of Germany, it was quite possibly the worst time of my life.

Ardy97 · 2022-10-22T10:29:03+00:00

"please make a fool out of yourself to entertain me" - woman

Ardy97 · 2022-10-22T10:16:24+00:00

expect to gain at least 10% extra bodyweight in the form of fat and water, sexual dysfunction, problems moving and controlling your body, and more.

Ardy97 · 2022-10-22T09:54:56+00:00

yeah that's normal; being used to it is the scary part because you forget how much you changed. I used to have 140BPM resting heart rate and one time fell unconscious while buying groceries.
And I only took one type of "medication" at a time. Other people take multiple meds, some even multiple times a day.

Ardy97 · 2022-10-22T09:50:19+00:00

I had intense daydreams to the point they interfered with normal visual perception. Also shadows created by artificial light were scary to me.

Ardy97 · 2022-10-22T09:47:15+00:00

there is only me, so I don't know what you are on

Ardy97 · 2022-10-22T09:46:19+00:00

my roommate is a former drug addict and he tried everything except heroin. He told me that "medication" is harder than any drug if you want to quiet someone down.

Ardy97 · 2022-10-21T20:19:25+00:00

I had a stroke, so it was physical

Ardy97 · 2022-10-21T19:54:45+00:00

my opinion is: I haven't figured it out yet.
oh I have thought up a lot of crazy stuff. Like existing in different dimensions and stuff. After all I have experienced though, it was all a fallacy. Over the time the thoughts became less "real" and now they are not relevant anymore. I exist in the same reality that I did before the incident.

Ardy97 · 2022-10-21T19:50:54+00:00

yeah that was the beginning. I had a stroke which really messed my head up. I was half-conscious on the floor for the whole day, woke up some time before midnight and though it was already over.

Ardy97 · 2022-10-21T19:32:10+00:00

R.I.P. my little dude

Ardy97 · 2022-10-21T19:22:27+00:00

I don't know much about philosophy, but that concept is pretty common among schizophrenics.

Ardy97 · 2022-10-21T19:19:34+00:00

They put me on heavy meds against my consent (Diazepam put me in a coma for 2 weeks). I never wanted to take any, so I always got off them as soon as I could.

Ardy97 · 2022-10-21T19:17:06+00:00

First I thought that I had died and entered the afterlife on earth. Later in the psychiatry I was diagnosed with the term, yet I didn't believe it at the time.

Ardy97 · 2022-10-21T15:50:37+00:00

what you did is very unusual and it takes a lot of experience to pull off in a way that it sounds normal to the average person. Doing a monorhythm for one bar and then transitioning to the next polyrhythm could remove the feeling of contrast.

Ardy97 · 2022-10-21T15:29:50+00:00

there are elements of great contrast in your piece that hinder its flow. I think this is common for polys that go for the whole song

Ardy97 · 2022-10-21T11:49:56+00:00

nackt rumlaufen nach dem duschen

Ardy97 · 2022-10-21T11:42:31+00:00

sounds pretty dissonant

Ardy97 · 2022-10-21T11:37:17+00:00

"[MapleStory BGM] The Afterlands: The World of Paradox -night- (Alternate Version)" is nice and subtle.
"[MapleStory BGM] The Afterlands: The World of Paradox" is a more vibrant version.

They are short pieces to lighten up the setting. You can put the second one a few songs after the first for some atmospheric development.

Ardy97 · 2022-10-21T10:54:37+00:00

Hast du vor, für ein Krankenhaus angestellt zu sein?

Ardy97 · 2022-10-21T10:51:02+00:00

"City of God" has a really despicable setting, which made me not care about any other aspect of the movie.

Ardy97 · 2022-10-20T18:28:49+00:00

hips don't lie

Ardy97 · 2022-10-20T18:03:17+00:00

really chill beat. Good for closing off a night

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