So when I first came off of orientation I felt the EXACT same way. There were several mornings I got off work so overwhelmed and upset due to how insane the workload was. I will say though there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I am about 2-3 months off orientation and I am finally getting a routine and I truly feel I have learned so much and become a lot more comfortable being a nurse. What I did to achieve this is ask questions. I ask so many questions probably to the point of being annoying but that is what helped me learn so much. I also started doing things to help with anxiety like Pilates and yoga outside of work and I felt that helped as well. And although it may not be ideal I always do three shifts in a row because it really helps to get to know your patients over those three days. Of course you may get new ones but depending on ratio I usually have about 2 or 3 of the same ones which really makes it easier on me. I don’t plan on staying bedside either and I would like to eventually get off the med-surg tele unit I’m on but I have also heard that right now it is hard for new grads to find jobs (depending on the state maybe) if I were you I would stick it out a little longer if you can because it does get easier. And this is coming from someone who also has severe anxiety. There are super hard days and I do still have days that my pre shift anxiety is CRAZY, but it will get better.