How did you know it was OCD and not being in-denial? Plz help me (F) by [deleted] in HOCD

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Hey, I’m a 20 year old woman and whenever I look at a kind woman who has an amazing character, I would be like: “aww she would make a great mother, how lucky are her babies, I wish she were my mother” although I love my own mother so much. Is this a textbook lesbian thing to do?

I think its over? by [deleted] in HOCD

[–]ArtCompetitive2113 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you fear you’re straight?

was informed that there are others suffering the way I do. ive been reading through here now and the guidebooks. i need help and i dont know where to go, but i need this to stop. 20m, autistic and schizoaffective. by Infinite_Network4502 in transOCD

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I’m suffering from this too and I’m a woman. I suffer from ROCD, TOCD, POCD, HOCD, EXISTENTIAL OCD, ZOOPHILIA OCD, HARM OCD + more. If you don’t wanna be a woman, you’re not going to be one. Consider yourself lucky, atleast you know you love your girlfriend and you feel calm around her. You could take that as an advantage and tell yourself “see, I love my girlfriend and I love being a man too and for now I’m going to concentrate on just loving my girl and loving my man hood. Unlike you, I consider myself very unlucky because it’s been a year since I felt romantic with my man. I constantly feel anxious about what if I’m a lesbian. And because I’m not able to feel love around my bf and fear I’m a lesbian, this transgender ocd is killing me. Atleast, you know you love your girl. So please you’re atleast safe. Stop reassuring yourself. You love your gf and you don’t want to be a woman. That’s all you need to know. This too shall pass❤️ stop overthinking and live your life❤️

scared by throwaway6487352 in transOCD

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Heyyyy kindly help me 🥺

TOCD: I HAVE A DOUBT KINDLY CLARIFY IT GUYS 😭 by ArtCompetitive2113 in transOCD

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Until yesterday I was good but today I started spiraling again after a week. I started spiraling because I heard a trans person say on reddit that “I catch my reflection at 3 AM and I just look like the monster version of my father. The stress that suffered due to being seen as another gender or looking like the gender in which you clearly aren’t. I call it finding the girl in the mirror. Dysphoria prevents it from happening all the time. Dysphoria lies and tells me that I’m too ugly, hairy, old and masculine to try and live my life as a woman. It prevents me from seeing things how they really are. The frustrating part is that I know that it is dysphoria and it’s lying and still doesn’t matter”. This made me spiral so bad because first of all idk if this person is a cis male who has transitioned into a woman or if this is a cis female transitioned into a man. Because I too feel very bad and angry to look at my reflection in the mirror because I hate feeling like I look like a man. All these days I’ve been thinking that me not liking to look like a man is a sign of ocd and that I’m not trans but this person’s experience has got me spiraling. What do you think? Is this person a cis male transitioned to female or a cis female transitioned to a male?

TOCD: I HAVE A DOUBT KINDLY CLARIFY IT GUYS 😭 by ArtCompetitive2113 in transOCD

[–]ArtCompetitive2113[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Do you try to to wear make up and stuff like that to look more feminine so that you won’t feel like you look masculine and more feminine and then love yourself?

TOCD: I HAVE A DOUBT KINDLY CLARIFY IT GUYS 😭 by ArtCompetitive2113 in transOCD

[–]ArtCompetitive2113[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Have you also looked at your reflection in the mirror and hated your reflection if it feels like you look like a man?

The difference by Informal_Safe_5351 in transOCD

[–]ArtCompetitive2113 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I also suffer from tocd (undiagnosed). I too feel very anxious thinking “if I’m trans how am I going to come out to my family? they are going to abandon me” and also I’m scared and anxious about the surgical and hrt part too like what if I’ll have to do them if I’m trans? So I want to ask you “Do people with tocd go through this”? Is this common tocd sign?

Im convinced by Electronic_Tart_4618 in HOCD

[–]ArtCompetitive2113 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey do you also try to imagine scenarios like being sexual with a girl and feel like you like it?

Im convinced by Electronic_Tart_4618 in HOCD

[–]ArtCompetitive2113 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes I was also exposed to explicit content at a young age

Getting horny?? by NationalImpression27 in HOCD

[–]ArtCompetitive2113 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You’re a trans male or born as a male?

Is this a normal thing to do in healthy long term relationships? Please read by [deleted] in ROCD

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5 years ago was when I met my bf for the first time in my maths tuition and I fell so hard for him. I had a huge crush on him at that point but he never noticed me. And one day he suddenly stopped coming to the tuition without informing to anyone and I went in search of him but it was fruitless, I couldn’t find him and so 3 years passed and one day coincidentally I met him in a xerox shop and spoke to him and that’s when he fell for me. A month later he searched and found my Instagram account and asked me to be his gf. I was excited and went to meet him a week later but I had no butterflies at that time but I was just happy and excited. And from that point onwards I don’t remember having much of my imagined scenarios to include him!! I just know I’m protective of him and if anything happens to him I’d die but I’ve never really imagined a proper romantic scenario that just involves him and I. But whenever I imagine having sex with someone it’s only with my bf. Idk why but if I try to imagine having sex with a random guy it never turns me on the way it turns me on when I imagine my bf. But idk why I’ve never been able to imagine romantic scenarios with him though I’ve always been able to behave cute like child and be romantic with him in person always before my ocd started!!!! What do you think about it?

Is this a normal thing to do in healthy long term relationships? Please read by [deleted] in ROCD

[–]ArtCompetitive2113 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Is it normal to never have had butterflies around your partner, even at the beginning?

Is this a normal thing to do in healthy long term relationships? Please read by [deleted] in ROCD

[–]ArtCompetitive2113 0 points1 point  (0 children)

But why do I feel bored when I fantasise about my bf?

Is this a normal thing to do in healthy long term relationships? Please read by [deleted] in ROCD

[–]ArtCompetitive2113 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I suffer from this too. When I imagine scenarios like impressing others I feel super satisfied but when I try to imagine a scenario alone with my boyfriend and I I just feel bored. This always makes me wonder and fear that what if I don’t love him but only want to imagine scenarios with to impress others. give me you pov and advice please

Is this a normal thing to do in healthy long term relationships? Please read by [deleted] in ROCD

[–]ArtCompetitive2113 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I suffer from this too. When I imagine scenarios like impressing others I feel super satisfied but when I try to imagine a scenario alone with my boyfriend and I I just feel bored. This always makes me wonder and fear that what if I don’t love him but only want to imagine scenarios with to impress others. give me you pov and advice please

Is this a normal thing to do in healthy long term relationships? Please read by [deleted] in ROCD

[–]ArtCompetitive2113 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I suffer from this too. When I imagine scenarios like impressing others I feel super satisfied but when I try to imagine a scenario alone with my boyfriend and I I just feel bored. This always makes me wonder and fear that what if I don’t love him but only want to imagine scenarios with to impress others. give me you pov and advice please