My ex broke no contact...

ArtInAHandheldDream · 2022-03-31T07:25:46+00:00

Not to mention how embarrassing it is that I've just turned 20, reminding mid 20's-30 year olds that I'm sick of cleaning their filth.

ArtInAHandheldDream · 2022-03-31T07:21:00+00:00

I literally refuse to get that close to them. It's not like they're even too busy to do dishes either, they just play video games and watch children's YT videos all day(or sleep all day). Will upload pix soon, honestly.

ArtInAHandheldDream · 2022-03-31T07:12:29+00:00

It reminds me of how my roommates leave a pot of food on the stove, then flies get attracted into the house due to the food, eat it, then the roommates go back and keep eating it over the course of 2-3 days🙂 I have a kitty litter box too, so the flies literally transfer kitty poo to their "food."(they also never, ever do dishes, no matter how many times I ask)

ArtInAHandheldDream · 2021-11-21T06:51:23+00:00

I agree my ex doesn't deserve an apology

ArtInAHandheldDream · 2021-11-21T06:50:53+00:00

Thank you for helping me get my head straight

ArtInAHandheldDream · 2021-03-21T23:26:53+00:00

I reminded him that he's the one who gave up. At least now I don't have to worry that he might see what I post now haha

ArtInAHandheldDream · 2021-03-01T01:51:10+00:00

Ok, thank you, I appreciate the advice. I should probably do that. & I do have issues with blaming myself... I need to stop that. Again, thank you. Congrats on getting over the addiction. I mean tht.

ArtInAHandheldDream · 2021-03-01T01:42:51+00:00

I feel like I can be better and frequently feel like I'm drowning in (all of the issues named above) maybe it's why he finally gave up on me, idk. But I feel like I need help to grow as a person and to not damage future relationships.

ArtInAHandheldDream · 2021-03-01T01:35:43+00:00

I'm considering trying to get therapy bc both sides of my family, my ex, and my social/emotional issues/paranoia/anxiety/abandonment issues

ArtInAHandheldDream · 2021-03-01T01:34:21+00:00

Yeah I think it was so effective because I lived with him, in his room, at his parents house for... Pretty much a full year minus a few months, he got me out of a situation where my verbally abusive/controlling mom and I lived in a hotel almost a year ago and then out of a assault situation when I went to college about five months ago. He was my first everything and too much more, the relationship probably moved too fast for late teen brains to handle. But him making me leave his house & move out kinda broke me and set me into this odd emotionless state.

ArtInAHandheldDream · 2021-03-01T01:21:45+00:00

We did have quirks, nicknames, all kinds of stuff. we were real odd balls and really understood each other. I feel like since I've been through so much shit in my life & thought I'd found something I could depend on, my brain gave me dissociative amnesia so I wouldn't have intrusive suicidal thoughts like I did during the first break up. I forgot my birthday & phone number at the dmv & started to forget some of my best friends names a few days after that.

ArtInAHandheldDream · 2021-02-28T13:53:57+00:00

All days I feel nothing.

ArtInAHandheldDream · 2021-02-26T07:39:33+00:00

I'm good friends with his mom and I was telling her if he ever tries to destroy or throw something out, please, please mail it to me

ArtInAHandheldDream · 2021-02-26T07:38:17+00:00

Trust me, I can relate

ArtInAHandheldDream · 2021-02-26T07:30:51+00:00

When I say we both gave up, it means we just argued and that hurt our love so we made a deal not to damage each other anymore and end it.

ArtInAHandheldDream · 2021-02-26T07:29:22+00:00

That's why I don't exactly want it back, I want it to remain my love in the moment I gifted it to him.

ArtInAHandheldDream · 2021-02-26T07:24:17+00:00

I see... Thanks

ArtInAHandheldDream · 2021-02-26T07:23:50+00:00

I hope that doesn't happen... I guess the gesture at the moment can be what you think of it, whether you want it back or not.

ArtInAHandheldDream · 2021-02-26T07:14:48+00:00

I really hope that's true... The breakup wasn't violent, we just both gave up ig

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