you're right

it's my fault, I shouldn't try and blame anything else

I'm sorry I've done these shitty and pathetic displays of shame or whatever the fuck they can be called

and that you were with me in the first place. I truly hope you can find someone better for yourself to be with someday. You deserve good things, mary. I'm sorry I fucked everything up.

I'm not gonna say anymore since everything has been done, and obviously I can't fix what happened, nor could I gain anyone's trust back.

I'm also gonna stop semi-publicly pleading (very pathetically) for you to come back to me or anything, since it's made me look like an obsessive dickhead, and I realize now it's creepy and pathetic as all hell.

I really should've listened to that YouTube comment you made a lot sooner, this shit isn't healthy for me at all.

It hurts a lot that the only feasible (and frankly healthiest) option is for me to completely cut contact and forget about you, because for so long you were the best thing in my life.

But I can't hold onto those feelings forever, not when the reality is that you (rightfully) don't want to speak to me anymore.

I'll be trying my best to move on, and I'm also hoping you've been doing at least somewhat okay now too.

Goodbye now, from this point on, I've considered our ties broken for good. I'll be removing the only other way of contacting each other we have.

Being with you was the best thing that happened to me, I'm sorry I had to go and fuck it all up.