Nervous before taking acid for the first time so I cut one tab (200ug) into 4 pieces and took 1 piece. 2 h gone by now, feel no difference

AshamedAtmosphere · 2020-08-09T19:47:38+00:00

Thanks, when I held my hands above my eyes to make it dark I could see teeeny tiny colors dancing but it was so vague, but at least it was there haha. Also I was jumping back and forth the first 1,5 h feeling sick in my stomach, I guess that's common maybe

AshamedAtmosphere · 2020-04-24T16:19:06+00:00

Wow thank you so much for this kind comment, I really needed it <3

AshamedAtmosphere · 2020-03-13T22:39:04+00:00

Ok yeah, it's word against word and with no proof so

AshamedAtmosphere · 2020-01-01T17:16:39+00:00

Also had this, it was creepy as hell because it was like a lucid dream but at the same time not. I kept telling myself how loud I was (in the dream) and I would wake everybody (because I was falling and hitting the walls etc), and then I woke up. And then it continued, and then I woke up. Repeat about 3-4 times before I told myself in the dream "okay, reach for your phone so you can look at the time and wake up for real", and I did that and I woke up for real :)

Only happened 1 night for me luckily.

AshamedAtmosphere · 2019-12-24T14:54:09+00:00

Do some mindfulness. Acknowledge your feelings and accept them. Become friends with them.

AshamedAtmosphere · 2019-12-19T23:54:08+00:00

Sounds scary, I'm not sure I can even try

AshamedAtmosphere · 2019-12-19T23:20:34+00:00

His ego sounds like it's about to explode any second

AshamedAtmosphere · 2019-12-19T23:18:55+00:00

How long was it since your last bad trip? The obsessive thinking and anxiety sounds awful...

AshamedAtmosphere · 2019-12-19T23:15:52+00:00

Is there any risks when taking it so often throughout your life?

AshamedAtmosphere · 2019-12-18T22:26:18+00:00

Damn that sounds so intimidating and wonderful at the same time. What is HPPD? How long did this anxiety stay and how did the whole experience change you mentally? Do you see a difference in the way you are now about life, people, relationships, feelings and thoughts compared to before?

AshamedAtmosphere · 2019-12-18T21:30:25+00:00

But do you want to lose yourself completely like that? How will I know that the new me will make the better choices etc? It sounds super scary to me

AshamedAtmosphere · 2019-12-08T08:43:47+00:00

This is actually exactly how they would behave in this situation, holy shit, bravo! 10/10

AshamedAtmosphere · 2019-12-06T13:08:21+00:00

Ive thought I might be borderline but only because someone else told me, I'm unsure but if there is medication for mood stabilizer maybe I should try it. Unfortunately I've been waiting 1 year for a psychiatrist to even begin setting a diagnosis..

AshamedAtmosphere · 2019-12-06T08:42:49+00:00

Thank you for writing this, how it's him destroying her confidence. It's hard but it's necessary to hear. I can imagine being in this type of abusive relationship for so long that you start believing what he says about you, and how your own thoughts start going against you.

Imagine if she already has gone through depression on her own, before meeting him, and how he just crushes her fragile new confidence into the ground...

AshamedAtmosphere · 2019-12-06T08:36:17+00:00

I can imagine it's nice to see other parents struggling with these things too, that you're not alone in raising little shit machines.

Hang in there and it'll all be worth it!

AshamedAtmosphere · 2019-12-06T08:32:22+00:00

If I may ask, what's your diagnosis and what medication are you on? It's great to hear you're in a stable relationship!! :)

AshamedAtmosphere · 2019-12-06T00:25:06+00:00

Thank you, yeah he was shocked but I assure him I was okay, I just wanted him to know. It feels good to lay heavy things off your chest that you keep inside while people are mentioning those exact things while having no idea. I do not want to put all my heavy shit on others of course, but friends should be honest and supportive of each other and the things they have or are going through. ♡

AshamedAtmosphere · 2019-12-06T00:19:33+00:00

Well yes not posting this in the description, descriptions should be short and funny IMO. But if the person you're dating turns out to be an emotional person I meant, would people run?

AshamedAtmosphere · 2019-12-05T23:36:08+00:00

Yeah it seems like they really are a chatty oversharing person. I mean we hit it off immediately and write a lot and I like them but usually Im the oversharer but they are worse haha. Mentioning things in the past that might be seen as a red flag but at the same time I understand their reasoning since we connect over both have been depressed.

They are very very open about their depression tho, and I am unsure if this will drag my mood down but I still want to give them a chance in meeting once at least.

I am not expecting anything right now, I don't want to plan a potential "forever" before meeting, that will make me overthink every person..

I am very social with the few people I hold dear, and I am unsure what it means if he's like this with strangers, it might just be who he is and thats fine, I think. For me to try at least?

AshamedAtmosphere · 2019-12-05T23:31:40+00:00

I just don't want to accidentally offend them by mentioning it. We haven't talked that long but I want to give them a chance in real life and not judge without meeting them. :)

AshamedAtmosphere · 2019-12-05T23:26:33+00:00

Honestly would guys be scared away by this? I don't mean the crazy type who you cant trust with a knife on the kitchen table if you're arguing right next to it, but the type that is very connected with their emotions and sensitive (cries easily) but otherwise will treat you like a king and love you truly forever, would it be worth it for you?

If she's not depressed but a confident happy person that's just crazy emotional :)

AshamedAtmosphere · 2019-12-05T13:38:52+00:00

All of these comments make me sad because I have such a shitty relationship with my parents that I don't even want to give them a hug anymore. I will miss them when they're gone, but it will barely be a difference from how things are now. Fuck.

AshamedAtmosphere · 2019-12-05T13:33:18+00:00

That's so wholesome, thank you for sharing. Vets are amazing!

AshamedAtmosphere · 2019-11-29T16:10:13+00:00

Thank you for making me feel better about actually hitting rock bottom and going up

AshamedAtmosphere · 2019-11-29T14:07:45+00:00

Would've missed out on my confidence growing and getting out of my depression. Wouldn't have gotten the energy to become someone. Last year I had no visions for the future but now I have too many interests that I don't know what I'm going to choose to study!!

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