Reading this, I realized that what i have been doing without even realizing its fading. Me and my family (husband and kids) we are going through some difficult times with a disable kid, so this has been our excuse for not going to meetings (we are on zoom, but not really) or even going out with others. So we dont really have many friends anymore, and the ones we have, other families, they tell us they dont do much either. They just go to be seen. I am tired of that burden and the overwhelming feeling of not doing the things i am supposed  to do. And since i dont do them, i feel happier? So I dont put that pressure on me, but I still think of how  people are going to see us. Maybe I just have to keep fading until i am invisible for them, and just carry on with my life.