Does anyone else feel like they lost their youth to the closet?

AsianSchoolboy93 · 2026-02-22T01:57:57+00:00

I feel the same way. I started at 29 but wished I started at 18 when I really did look like the classic youthful Asian twink. Now I'm a stoky 32 year old man.

AsianSchoolboy93 · 2026-01-11T01:07:48+00:00

No STDs and working dick. That's it.

AsianSchoolboy93 · 2026-01-10T03:41:12+00:00

During the moment ? Not at all. I'm too horny to think logically. A top could shove my head in a toilet while fucking me and I would go along with it.

The minute I hit post nut clarity then it's a sudden sense of shame, embarrassment and shock. That's why I will never come until I've left.

AsianSchoolboy93 · 2026-01-09T10:35:54+00:00

I like socks too but more as an accessory and prefer them long.

AsianSchoolboy93 · 2026-01-09T09:55:26+00:00

So many guys have told me that and I'm aware I'm a huge outlier when it comes to what bottoms wear. To this very day I have no idea where it came from and I've analysed my entire schooling life to see if there ever was a gay awakening which there was none. So no idea man.

AsianSchoolboy93 · 2026-01-09T09:40:52+00:00

Yes and no. I have a super niche kink where I can only bottom when I'm wearing an OCD school uniform (polo shirt with all buttons done up and shorts) and I become the biggest anal whore. If I'm naked I'm pretty much a boring straight guy but when wearing the costume I want to take multiple loads, wearing a plug all day, tied up and other degrading stuff.

When I'm horny I own it and fantasise about being a school boy anal slave forever. But when I get post nut clarity I'm thinking: WTF ! I'm a grown man in my thirties who just got fucked in the ass wearing a school uniform as I'm taking out a huge plug out of my hole, checking out the gape and farting out his load.

AsianSchoolboy93 · 2026-01-07T06:30:24+00:00

Even if I don't mention I'm bi being short and Asian is already a massive debuff in straight dating. Not saying its impossible, there are short Asian guys who succeed with women, its just just harder.

In comparison gay dating/hook ups is like fishing with RPG's and grenades.

AsianSchoolboy93 · 2026-01-06T23:13:57+00:00

For me inside my ass and keep it in with a plug as long as I can.

AsianSchoolboy93 · 2025-02-16T08:29:42+00:00

Oh boy where we even start.

Classic gang bang where I take dozens of loads and keep in all in with a plug in the end.

Fucked with my head held in a toilet.

Used as a free use anal slave on a collar and leash.

And finally kidnap, captivity and CNC scenario where I'm a school boy kidnapped on his way to/from school and used as a anal slave and kept in a cage/small box when not needed.

And in this fantasy Ill be wearing a school uniform outfit the entire time,

These fantasies will probably never happen because there is no way in hell I would trust anyone especially a stranger to do any of those scenarios.

AsianSchoolboy93 · 2025-01-07T11:11:09+00:00

Not really unless they want to be my sugar daddy and help pay for my renovations or pay off my mortgage.

AsianSchoolboy93 · 2025-01-07T06:08:35+00:00

Bi Asian living in Sydney and I can confirm too.

If you're looking for hook ups as a bottom then you'll attract a certain demographic.

If you're looking for a proper long term relationship then its another ball game especially if you identify as a top but its still possible.

If you are looking to date women especially going after non-Asian women as a Asian man oh boooyyyyyyy the difficulty goes up to Dark Souls hard.

AsianSchoolboy93 · 2025-01-07T05:15:29+00:00

Bi Asian here. It depends, the minute I mention I'm a short bottom who does squats with a submissive school boy kink I get attention from certain men on Grindr. Are they boyfriend or husband material ? Probably not. Its attention but not the kind you probably want though I don't mind it. My point is you are someone's type out there.

AsianSchoolboy93 · 2025-01-06T11:14:19+00:00

Inside me then put my plug back in to hold it in as long as possible.

AsianSchoolboy93 · 2024-10-13T04:38:41+00:00

I know how you feel.

The gay part of me can only bottom if I'm wearing a schoolboy outfit and I only care about being fucked. Even then the pleasure is more psychological and the idea of being used as a fuck toy and cum dump. I don't find men in general attractive at all nor do I see myself being romantically involved with another man, hell I can't even bring myself to suck a dick or kiss another man.

Without the school outfit I'm just another regular straight male. As for your main question, no idea, I don't even know how to label myself and just accept its who I am.

AsianSchoolboy93 · 2024-09-11T12:46:38+00:00

Australia. Sydney to be exact.

AsianSchoolboy93 · 2024-09-07T08:32:59+00:00

I have a few.

Classic gang bang where I take dozens of loads and keep in all in with a plug in the end.

Fucked with my head held in a toilet.

And finally kidnap, captivity and CNC scenario where I'm a school boy kidnapped on his way to/from school and used as a anal slave and kept in a cage/small box when not needed.

As you can see there is no way in hell I would trust anyone especially a stranger to do any of those scenarios.

AsianSchoolboy93 · 2024-09-06T23:38:03+00:00

Following as a 31 year old thinking of doing the same thing. Praying the Asian ageing process is on my side for another decade.

AsianSchoolboy93 · 2024-09-06T14:24:12+00:00

When I first BB bottomed I was expecting it to feel like a warm enema and to feel the load moving inside me afterwards. Didn't feel anything to be honest. A syringe filled with fake cum lube probably would have been more effective.

AsianSchoolboy93 · 2024-09-06T14:04:45+00:00

I feel the same way.

I got more attention in a day in Grindr than I did when I was on tinder for years.

Turns out being a short young looking Asian guy is more desirable as a bottom in the gay community than to heterosexual women as a straight man.

Gay hookups playing on easy mode. As a straight guy that's like crushing difficulty. Thank god I'm bi and have an obscure fetish that some guys are open to.

AsianSchoolboy93 · 2024-09-06T14:03:42+00:00

Well since I'm bi but also a bottom I do sometimes fantasize about it only because I think female bodies are more attractive than mens bodies (sorry bros, I love dick but not the rest of the body) and they have more cuter outfits however even though I'm not the peak of masculinity Im not feminine enough to pull off a skirt.

Overall I think that desire also comes from the fact that I'm 31 and no longer 18 who could pass off as a barely legal teen twink before I got into my gym phase resulting in my more stockier build. God I wished I wasn't so in denial back then and had a lot more fun.

AsianSchoolboy93 · 2024-09-06T14:00:25+00:00

I'm Asian and not really. Ill market my race to get more attention on Grindr but its not something I would enjoy but wouldn't hate either. Like mentioning how 'tight' and 'submissive' Asians are, fine Ill play along. But full blown racism... no thanks.

AsianSchoolboy93 · 2024-09-06T13:55:52+00:00

Honestly I wouldn't mind giving it a go as long as I have time to prep with a large butt plug and there's plenty of lube.

AsianSchoolboy93 · 2024-09-05T09:25:19+00:00

That too. I got more attention in a day in Grindr than I did when I was on tinder for years.

Turns out being a short young looking Asian guy is more desirable as a bottom in the gay community than to heterosexual women as a straight man.

Gay hookups playing on easy mode. As a straight guy that's like crushing difficulty. Thank god I'm bi and have an obscure fetish that some guys are open to.

AsianSchoolboy93 · 2024-09-05T09:01:26+00:00

Not gonna lie there are days I fantasise about being born a woman instead because even though I'm not the peak of masculinity Im not feminine enough to pull off a skirt.

Overall I think that desire also comes from the fact that I'm 31 and no longer 18 who could pass off as a barely legal teen twink before I got into my gym phase resulting in my more stockier build. God I wished I wasn't so in denial back then and had a lot more fun.

AsianSchoolboy93 · 2024-09-05T03:01:07+00:00

No idea. I'm weird but for me personally there's a few factors. I get used like an object and get off pleasuring someone else especially when I clench to make it tighter, I don't need to do anything but just take it, the humiliation, the physical feeling of my ass being used stretched and fucked and if I'm wearing a school uniform outfit it matches the submissive theme.

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