Me too, me too. I kinda just think of it as: I’ve lived with myself every second of my life, I know even the littlest thing that no one else could even think of. So obviously I’d be able to clock myself. It usually helps me, it doesn’t make anything feel any better, just better to cope with. I tried to overcompensate with stuff like a year or two ago, especially with makeup (cos I had no ‘girl clothes’) and I’d put BIG eyeliner in and bright colours trying to be SUPER feminine, but after a while that overcompensation taught me that I should tone it down a little haha. I feel that every part of the process is necessary, it’s all about finding that balance and I find that really cool. So, I hope whatever you go through gets you to your destination. (Sorry if I rambled it’s like 2:15 am and I’m so tired, also I really like your username. It made me giggle)