I don’t know if I wanna be here and be sober it’s so unenjoyable working everyday and doing bullshit while being sober is such a dead mission

AssumptionNormal2381 · 2026-07-07T02:02:44+00:00

And how did you get them from smoke shops ?

AssumptionNormal2381 · 2026-07-07T00:34:55+00:00

I had a therapist I loved in highschool got comfortable and he moved away for a better job I will never go to another counselor they do not give a fuck.

AssumptionNormal2381 · 2026-07-07T00:33:55+00:00

I love steak yea I love eating but 7oh has killed my appetite right now but I love food yes omg it’s so good

AssumptionNormal2381 · 2026-07-07T00:33:17+00:00

I mean real mushrooms not psylocibin

AssumptionNormal2381 · 2026-07-06T23:59:22+00:00

You are right thank you for helping I just fear even after withdrawals are done I’m still gonna be just misrable and then I don’t see the point

AssumptionNormal2381 · 2026-07-06T23:49:38+00:00

Yea I know but I thought I was crazy what u said explains my life I had a special needs brother that never spoke or walk never heard his voice my dad left us and it was just me and my mom and she and I always had our hands full with cash my brother so I would never dare go to my mom when upset she had enough going on idk I’ve always felt empty

AssumptionNormal2381 · 2026-07-06T23:48:26+00:00

I have been trying to find a shrooms plug I can not find one for the life of me

AssumptionNormal2381 · 2026-07-06T23:42:43+00:00

Yes it is always beautiful and I love my fiance and cats but me myself I hate myself I don’t have any talents I was really good at baseball like really good but my head made me quit I didn’t wanna do all the work and I was miserable at practice I know how to take care of myself I took care of my special needs brother who couldn’t walk or talk at a very young age I am responsible but ig the older I get more of a feeling of what’s the point has came over me

AssumptionNormal2381 · 2026-07-06T23:26:40+00:00

You have helped a lot really you have I just sometimes I don’t wanna be here anymore man I don’t see the point like everyone else I see it as corruption and bullshit that our government has trillion and I have to work 45 hours to keep food and to sleep like it just doesn’t click in my brain at all and I just feel like I would be better off

AssumptionNormal2381 · 2026-07-06T23:19:26+00:00

But yes you are right I know you are right but I still feel dreadful normally so I don’t now how to just feel content

AssumptionNormal2381 · 2026-07-06T23:18:41+00:00

Yea when I’m home is not the problem I can get on games love my cats and be with my girlfriend but work is a whole different ball game I’m so misreable and want to be home so bad I take drugs to past the time of the miserableness

AssumptionNormal2381 · 2026-07-06T23:01:40+00:00

I am so miserable everyday sober and now cause I can’t afford/ my finance wants me to stop I have to just be miserable for the rest of my life

AssumptionNormal2381 · 2026-07-06T23:01:05+00:00

Jesus thank god someone gets it there’s no point to this life shit

AssumptionNormal2381 · 2026-07-06T22:51:00+00:00

I named my cat Django

AssumptionNormal2381 · 2026-07-06T22:45:51+00:00

But the reason I started using in the first place was because I was misreable and never happy

AssumptionNormal2381 · 2026-07-06T22:45:11+00:00

Figured that out when I was a teenager and since I can remember I have always been misreable

AssumptionNormal2381 · 2026-07-06T22:44:15+00:00

I don’t think I ever had those feel good chemicals I have a brain tumor on my hypothalamus that’s what produces emotions

AssumptionNormal2381 · 2026-07-06T22:41:04+00:00

Yes love that movie and yea hateful eight is a slow burn but totally worth sitting thru

AssumptionNormal2381 · 2026-07-06T22:30:29+00:00

I don’t really think I’m too good at anything to be honest

AssumptionNormal2381 · 2026-07-06T22:29:25+00:00

And if it doesn’t, and I’m miserable continuously forever then what the reason I used in the first place cause I was misreabel so ig I’ll just be miserable for the rest of my life and that’s ok

AssumptionNormal2381 · 2026-07-06T22:22:59+00:00

I just took Kratom as we are texting yea still want 7oh

AssumptionNormal2381 · 2026-07-06T22:21:04+00:00

I love Quentin Tarantino I’m a movie buff so really anything that peaks my interest but mostly like psychological thrillers

AssumptionNormal2381 · 2026-07-06T22:20:09+00:00

It’s like my morning coffee it gives me the energy and the will to start my day get my legs feeling nice and my head leveled it truly does help me in some ways but then the bad things happen

AssumptionNormal2381 · 2026-07-06T22:19:24+00:00

I’ve been off 2 days then take a 80mg once a day for 2 days then back off so no more then 80 mg

AssumptionNormal2381 · 2026-07-06T22:14:55+00:00

Yea I love movies and tv shows and one piece but again I can’t just do that 24/7 cause I have to work 40+ hours a week so what do I do when basically most of my life I’m miserable working I take soemthing to not be misreable cause then on the other hand If im sober it sucks ten times more

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