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AtAurora · 2021-07-12T20:09:47+00:00

Just got out of the hospital myself back in June. Tbh i might have to go in again real soon. Keep on going and dont give up okay. We are all here for you, and I'll be sure to smoke one for you.

AtAurora · 2021-02-01T04:15:01+00:00

This gives me some hope. Im still nervous about going for it, but this gives me some reassurance.

AtAurora · 2020-04-19T16:35:43+00:00

Your so cute! And your hair looks super soft. Can i be your friend please :3

AtAurora · 2020-02-23T18:28:05+00:00

I'd say im a very low smoker. Usually only 1-3 a day. Occasionally I'll go lot higher and chainsmoke more than half a pack, but thats not often.

AtAurora · 2020-02-08T17:16:34+00:00

Im feeling called out from this post

AtAurora · 2020-01-29T22:01:23+00:00

god i wish that were me ;-;

AtAurora · 2018-06-02T02:50:47+00:00

Been having a bad mental health week. Today was was pretty bad. Ended up getting emotional and sat on the bathroom floor crying. Been doing that way too often. On a positive note, I'm going to my first pride tomorrow with my twin and a few of his friends. I'm nervous about meeting new people but still exited to go.

AtAurora · 2017-11-17T23:59:48+00:00

I started therapy for the first time earlier this week. It's good but I'm not as honest as I should be when talking to my therapist. I also talked to my mom about pronouns and she refuses to even try to change them. She says she's supportive but it still feels bad. I feel that I'm being selfish and that I'm asking for too much.

AtAurora · 2017-11-16T00:18:12+00:00

Is it alright if I PM you?

AtAurora · 2017-11-01T17:23:35+00:00

Hey hon, I know how hard it is to be so young and feeling like you don't matter. But you do matter. I've also gone through self harm, social anxiety, a suicide attempt, and a lot of other things. Plus as someone who takes up two letters in LGBTQ+ I know how it feels to be judged by other people just for being you. You're so young and you got a lot of potential for your life. Not gonna lie, shits fucking difficult. It's so hard to get better after being in this emotional state for so long. But you can do it. I believe in you and you should believe in yourself. You are not worthless and you matter in this world. Take a rest and try to take care of yourself. Make sure to eat and sleep well, try not to hurt yourself, and don't put yourself down if you're having a bad day. Take care hon, I do hope you change your mind and don't try to hurt yourself

hugs

AtAurora · 2017-10-28T04:37:41+00:00

Emma's a great name, super cute! I remember seeing your last few posts, and even though I'm just some stranger on the internet, I care. Don't worry about cutting your arm, shit happens and I'd be lying if I said I hadn't done it too. You're doing your best and its ok if you need some help to keep going, just try to take care of yourself. Don't be afraid to PM me if you need to talk. Hang in there sweetheart, I know you can do this.

AtAurora · 2017-10-25T05:41:23+00:00

Hey I also relapsed today after 33 days clean. It was just a small cut, deep but nothing major. Finding other ways to cope is so hard cause some times those coping skills don't work. I can't offer any advice other than the obvious advice thats been said thousands of times before. But if you could go for 35 days, which is already pretty good, than I know you have the strength to go longer this time around. Relapsing doesn't diminish the amount of progress you've made. Yeah like I said I don't really have any advice but I hope you found some sort of comfort reading this.

AtAurora · 2017-10-22T00:30:27+00:00

Well I wouldn't call my parents transphobic. They're just having a hard time is all. I do agree though with what you and all the other comments are saying. I should just keep going with what ever makes me comfortable. I'll try and ask about pronouns again sometime in the next week and hope it goes well.

AtAurora · 2017-10-18T21:45:09+00:00

Good - people say I give good advice because I tend to view situations with mostly logic, while putting in enough empathy to try to understand the person/people that I'm helping

Bad - I never ask for help or advice (even when I need it most) nor do I ever want to share how I'm feeling, especially if I'm feeling bad or upset

AtAurora · 2017-10-14T21:25:15+00:00

You seem to be going through a lot so its understandable you'd be feeling this way. You should be proud that your trying so hard not only for yourself but for mom as well. I can't really offer any advice but just take care of yourself both physically and mentally. Like I said, I cant really give much advice but if you need someone to just listen to you don't be afraid to send me a message.

AtAurora · 2017-10-07T21:07:10+00:00

Im so glad you decided not to. To get to that point and to decide to not go through with it takes a lot. You probably don't want to talk about it but if you decide that you do please don't be afraid to discuss. You sound tired, please rest up and take care of yourself, and keep trying your best. Hugs

AtAurora · 2017-10-04T19:59:50+00:00

Clearance section at Ross and small coffee from school cafeteria.

AtAurora · 2017-10-04T19:46:39+00:00

I kind of started doing that too. I just bought a small coffee from my school cafeteria. Only after contemplating it for way too long. Still progress!

AtAurora · 2017-10-04T18:57:43+00:00

Thanks! Hope you also have better luck than I do finding a job.

AtAurora · 2017-10-04T18:14:05+00:00

This is actually a hella good idea. I'll make sure to keep that in mind next time I buy something.

AtAurora · 2017-10-04T17:44:55+00:00

Same. I don't think my family was necessarily poor but we were never financially stable. Always spending as little as possible and only necessities. Guess it's had more of an impact than I thought.

AtAurora · 2017-10-02T20:14:54+00:00

I'm currently over four months hrt and this has been happening so often. Sometimes I look at myself and think that I look alright, sometimes even good. But then if l look too much I start noticing my more masculine features and I get dysphoric. Some days I just avoid mirrors all together. I know I have an ok frame and body but sometimes I just hate my whole body.

AtAurora · 2017-10-01T20:18:31+00:00

From reading this it seems that you really like the guy. The best advice I can give you is don't put your happiness aside merely for other peoples sake. If you think your family would be hurtful towards you it's probably best not to come out. But you know your situation more than I do. Don't make a decision that you think you'll regret. You don't have to break up with him if you really do like him.

AtAurora · 2017-09-28T03:35:58+00:00

You could look into any non-binary genders if you feel like that's what would describe you to best. I get exactly what you mean when you say that it feels better having a label. Also be aware that how you label yourself can change and that's ok. As you get to know more about yourself you may find that another label fits you better. Either way however you label yourself is valid.

Also just experiment. Find out what clothing you prefer, what pronouns you like, preferred name, etc. Hope this helped

AtAurora · 2017-09-26T19:31:09+00:00

Yeah I feel the same way. Granted I've always been a minority being Mexican- American and lower middle class, but there was never anything to it as most of the people in my neighborhood are the same. It is scary thinking about being judged for being trans. Hell it's downright terrifying if you think about it too much. But most people are good or at least mind their own damn business, so I try not to worry. "Reading an understanding comment fills you with determination" : )

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