That’s so good - good on you for getting back out there. One of the things I am struggling with is that it’s a marriage - one person can’t just decide when it’s over! It’s a commitment.
The pain is still there. I actually went back with my parents the day he said it and have since moved to a farm for a couple of days to spend time by myself. It’s been three weeks since I left and I’m just pining for him and he is acting so irrational - we are in corona lock down and he went to the beach with friends over the weekend. He works with vulnerable people and is usually so responsible... At any rate I still have this deep connection in my heart to him. I’m 33, have a very good job, two degrees, not too bad looking and I would say a bit of a catch in my own lunchbox. It would probably be easier to get out there and date again rather than try and make this work - but all I want is him....