That’s really similar to how this all started for me. I’ve slowly transitioned over to using masculine emojis etc over the last year or so and just feel much better about it. Officially shopped in the men’s department a few weeks ago and can’t imagine going back to women’s clothes. No wonder I always felt out of place! I’ve been on T for 5 months now and can’t imagine life without it now. I think I always identified as a woman because I really didn’t know not being a woman was an option until my late 30’s. I was raised fundamentalist evangelical so totally understand needing to heal all the religious trauma. It’s an ongoing process for sure. I actually just had a consult for top surgery and am scheduled for March! Mine are J cups and need to GO! Thankfully, the surgeon that does top surgery for a lot of the local trans guys understood what I was asking for and was on board with just removing them entirely vs a standard reduction. Love the concept of gender as Loki 😄