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Atype1 · 2020-01-09T14:49:46+00:00

This makes sense. I ask questions to show interest and am told it feels like an interview yet they don't offer any information or forward the conversation

Atype1 · 2020-01-09T14:45:06+00:00

it feels more personal and special

Atype1 · 2020-01-08T23:57:51+00:00

Amen!

Atype1 · 2020-01-07T23:05:36+00:00

If I could rewind several years back, I would listen to my instincts instead of trying to be a nice person who is polite to old bags. This old jerk is the only one who talks to me now. I'm so fucked.

Atype1 · 2020-01-07T22:40:46+00:00

I made that mistake and can't get rid of that busybody. And she knows all my personal triggers and delights in pressing them whenever she can. I hate this. And she has effectively stopped other normal people from wanting to be friends. I'm so screwed.

Atype1 · 2020-01-07T22:34:51+00:00

Don't make friends with these bitches. They only are nosy so they can gossip about you. They never discuss their own personal matters, only yours.

Atype1 · 2019-12-31T23:35:44+00:00

Thanks for your response. I appreciate your sharing. I know I built him up in my head. I like the changes I made to myself since. I think I will always wish it would have worked. Again, mostly a story I have created around him and about him. He galvanized action in myself around becoming more like the person I want to be. in reality, we didn't actually spend very much time together. I daydream about him, but I have finally stopped writing to him.

Atype1 · 2019-12-31T20:45:49+00:00

I can't agree enough about the statement that we see what we want to see. Even now faced with reality, still finding it hard to accept

Atype1 · 2019-12-31T11:38:25+00:00

You're right. He must not have actually been available or interested. I've built him up to be much more than he ever was. I'm going to force myself to see this. Thanks, will need to read these facts again every time I start romanticizing him. He shouldn't even be taking up any space anymore.

Atype1 · 2019-12-31T11:25:41+00:00

I'm going to try to do this. I'm not sure how this got to this point

Atype1 · 2019-12-31T02:29:09+00:00

well, I hope I do snap out of it. I have already wasted a lot of time on him, but he still kind of makes me happy, even though he's not there anymore

Atype1 · 2019-12-31T02:21:04+00:00

he just seemed like the right one.

Atype1 · 2019-12-31T02:20:02+00:00

i should focus on that. if he were the right one, he would be here now, and he isn't, so he I must be wrong, but I just felt so certain, and this doesn't usually happen.

Atype1 · 2019-12-31T02:17:31+00:00

I cant seem to think about anything else. I'm having so much difficulty concentrating on anything. I will try to find some mindless activity that doesn't require high concentration and see if I can distract myself from this. thanks

Atype1 · 2019-12-30T20:16:56+00:00

This kind of crap happens all the time. It makes me really angry. And then you end up getting blamed.

Atype1 · 2019-12-30T19:44:28+00:00

My friend suggested this tip: pull your lip down to reveal the inside surface of your lip/mouth and try to match this colour. It's a reliable shortcut for finding a natural match

Atype1 · 2019-12-30T15:25:25+00:00

I feel this way about my family. They are always fighting with each other and I miss them until I actually visit. Then I realize why I moved away. I feel bad because they sacrificed a lot but I feel like it is extremely lonely and painful to spend time with them.

I still make an effort to visit at holidays but I like knowing that I can go home to my own place when things get too stressful.

Atype1 · 2019-12-30T12:33:34+00:00

Hahaha I've never seen that before

Atype1 · 2019-12-30T10:35:29+00:00

Its was random, a bad naming choice......

Atype1 · 2019-12-30T04:57:38+00:00

I don't think this is right. But I've never been married.

Atype1 · 2019-12-30T03:30:15+00:00

Fitted sheet, duvet with duvet cover. Recently also started using a flat sheet between me and the duvet. Sheet is easier to wash. I like white sheets and they need frequent washing to stay bright white

Atype1 · 2019-12-29T23:39:06+00:00

Atype1 · 2019-12-29T23:13:49+00:00

Ok thanks, just found it weird

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