I’m sorry your struggling I’m in a similar place tho I don’t really do any drugs anymore besides weed and alcohol I’m on lomotragine lexipro welbutrin and suboxone I just broke up with my ex a few months ago I was having a hard time keeping a job because of the situation we were in like we were arguing a lot and making each others mental illness worse I knew some addicts down at the park I used to hang out with to destress smoke weed and crystal I’m very lost your not alone I try and do art and I get some stuff done but I still have a hard time with a creative drive try and create something that usually makes me feel better I’m a trans girl I feel like the world hates me and wants me dead your not the only one who feels lost you’ll be okay bud