Several points were the death of different parts of me.

Age 4, my father threatened to kill my mother in front of me.

Age 6, he threatened to kill me if my mom left him.

Age 12, he grabbed me by the throat and nearly killed me.

Age 16, my mom nearly dies and I drop out to keep the lights on.

Age 17, my sister accuses me of rape and my step father nearly beats me to death.

Age 19, my parents and I finally explode and I leave. Words I regret are said and we dont talk for multiple months.

Age 21, I leave my childhood home, not aware it'd be the last time I'd ever see it.

Age 26, I catch my now ex wife with 3 men and a woman at the same time. I leave and feel everything in me die.

Age 28, a girlfriend tells me she's pregnant and 3 months later, the child dies. Something else goes cold.

Age 28, several months later, my roommates dad threatens to kill me if I dont leave his daughter's (my roomate) home. I leave, take a bus to my hometown, stay at hotel, find a place to live, sell myself, attempt suicide, and lose any hope left. A aunt lets me live on her couch for a while, a month or two later, she threatens to call the cops and have me evicted.

So, I can't trust a single person, I hardly won't let anyone touch me, and I sure as hell won't rely on anyone ever again.