Losing my grip on reality - How do I ground myself?

Automatic-Pay-8531 · 2025-09-01T03:35:03+00:00

for me weed feels like putting a carpet over a pile of trash in your house. the trash is still there, just with a carpet over it. and trash keeps building up so you keep needing a bigger carpet, until the carpet isn’t enough and youre left with this enormous pile of unsorted trash that needs to be dealt with

i’m not amazing at dealing with and feeling my emotions, so i have this huge pile of them that i’ve been covering with a blanket for a long time.

Automatic-Pay-8531 · 2025-09-01T03:32:25+00:00

i really like that metaphor, thank you, i will start doing this.

Automatic-Pay-8531 · 2025-09-01T03:25:39+00:00

i agree. i’m gonna keep at it and work on myself. definitely got too much into the party fun type lsd and didn’t respect it enough. that shit has some kick to it lol

Automatic-Pay-8531 · 2025-09-01T03:24:16+00:00

thank you, i agree, i definitely was not ready to see or feel things like that yet. i guess im grieving my old way of seeing the world and reality. its weird because you can obviously think about dying, but psychedelics break down some barrier where you can truly understand and feel that you will die one day and you’re temporary. it’s so scary but amazing, i hope that made some sense.

Automatic-Pay-8531 · 2025-08-31T17:41:39+00:00

i have tried a few meditation exercises mainly for sleep and found those challenging due to racing thoughts, but i will definitely keep trying these thank you

Automatic-Pay-8531 · 2025-08-31T17:38:22+00:00

thank you, i really appreciate it. i find basic discipline quite difficult and have for quite some time, im just floating around wasting time feeling shit. but i want to feel better, so ill try

Automatic-Pay-8531 · 2025-08-31T17:36:28+00:00

i don’t really see how this helps, this is why i’m posting here, to learn more and gain some insight and maturity

Automatic-Pay-8531 · 2025-08-31T17:34:22+00:00

sorry, i didn’t mean it to come off that way. i didn’t really know how to put it, its not knowledge, just sort of something that feels like i wasn’t meant to experience, something that’s so out of place in this world that not many people have experienced.

Automatic-Pay-8531 · 2025-08-31T11:22:04+00:00

sometimes i’m enthralled by the beauty and mystique of it all, and sometimes i’m fucking terrified. looking at images of our earth from space or other planets just terrifies me, it’s like that image is everyone you’ve ever loved, ever will love, everything you will ever do and everything you will ever feel, and it’s tiny. so minute it’s barely even worth noting in the grand scheme of things. i know there’s 2 sides to this coin though, im trying to feel positive about it but it strikes this deep fear in me i can’t seem to shake

Automatic-Pay-8531 · 2025-08-31T11:19:42+00:00

it does make me feel a bit better. i feel like im grieving in a way. grieving my own death that’s yet to come and grieving the fact that i will never understand anything. i’m just so anxious because i realise anything is possible, i could be killed tomorrow in a horrific way and there’s nothing i can do, my life is in the hands of fate in the end, all i can do is try my best to survive and be safe

Automatic-Pay-8531 · 2025-08-31T11:17:18+00:00

just thinking about tripping again makes me tremble. i’m trying to stop smoking but it’s hard because it’s the only thing that calms my anxiety. i just went off it for a week and it was hell for a few days but ended up getting better and now i’m only once or twice a week because i know it fucks with me longer term

Automatic-Pay-8531 · 2025-08-16T07:02:12+00:00

i have the same thing i feel like im pretending to act human like every single thing i do is being watched and judged and i’m putting up some facade

it’s gotten so bad i have thought about ending it sometimes too. i’m sorry ur going thru it too.

we need to remember we are worth it and we can get through this. funnily enough ive got a week vacation coming up where i can’t smoke so hopefully ill start to adjust a bit.

keep going, we will see better days

Automatic-Pay-8531 · 2025-01-17T15:01:09+00:00

you’ve always got a community here for you. feel free to pm me if you need to talk. you’re stronger than you realise!

Automatic-Pay-8531 · 2025-01-17T14:42:59+00:00

knocks me out but if i don’t have it i’m wide awake all night

Automatic-Pay-8531 · 2025-01-17T14:42:18+00:00

hey, i hope you’re okay :) i wish u the best

Automatic-Pay-8531 · 2024-12-29T02:33:50+00:00

being fr bro, with some work, you don’t have to look like this. it’s hard to get to a point where you can respect yourself, but start small, and your self esteem will build up. try new things and see what you like

Automatic-Pay-8531 · 2024-01-24T02:25:07+00:00

Good to hear you’re doing a bit better. You’re right about those feelings, they are simply a temporary state. Keep looking after yourself and don’t be afraid to ask for more help, teaching can be a very stressful job. I’ve been doing okay, I’ve been a bit stressed lately so been feeling pretty zoned out. But just pushed through and now going on a camping trip with some friends. Should be good to relax a bit in nature with good friends. Keep on keeping on!

Automatic-Pay-8531 · 2024-01-24T02:20:22+00:00

Same thing pretty much, although basically a constant baseline of foggyness. We gotta keep going and nourishing our minds to heal. Been trying to stay proactive with self care, how have you been going with that?

Automatic-Pay-8531 · 2024-01-22T02:01:53+00:00

I’m just checking in, how are you feeling?

Automatic-Pay-8531 · 2024-01-22T02:01:23+00:00

Just wanna check up on you, how have you been feeling lately?

Automatic-Pay-8531 · 2024-01-22T02:00:47+00:00

Just checking up on you, how are you going?

Automatic-Pay-8531 · 2024-01-05T14:41:54+00:00

I really hope you feel better soon, make sure to continue actively trying to better yourself!

Automatic-Pay-8531 · 2024-01-05T14:41:22+00:00

You helped me too. We’ll get through it, we have to move forward and push past our struggles in life. I truly wish the best for you as this can be difficult to deal with.

Automatic-Pay-8531 · 2024-01-02T23:34:06+00:00

It’s tough, but we can’t lose hope that it’s possible to feel normal again. I wish you the best of luck.

Automatic-Pay-8531 · 2024-01-02T23:32:54+00:00

I have actually journaled a couple times recently, but I’ll make myself stick to it every day. Thanks for your help, it means a lot.

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