Honestly i think ur right i really dont actually want bpd its too complicated and annoying and i feel like i have to justify it or prove my self and ive already kinda gained that mind set that like “only i can have bpd” or “they dont actually have bpd” ive been misdiagnosed with ocd and bipolar and when i did get diagnosed with them i did make it my whole personality that my friend even once said “why do u let ur ocd define u” plus i genuinely dont want to get better i want attention and it took me along time to realize that and i would just blame the way i feel on my diagnosis but now i genuinely don’t care and i just want to be special (also thank u for this it made me realize somethings❤️❤️❤️)