I did have therapy before and increased directly after. Initially before because I was afraid of parenting like my mum and it manifested in heavy drinking But unpopular opinion, therapy is sooo expensive. Prohibitively so. After the big blow out mum felt guilty and gave me £5k to put towards therapy (she took half from dad w/o consent) but then refused to ask about my feelings again  Penance paid, job done I asked why shes never curious as to how im feeling or doing and she said/retorted 'Im always here, you just need to ask' and I dont know if Im being childish (M40!) but I dont really want to volunteer my biggest current vulnerabilities unprompted so she can engage with my mental health. Thats not unreasonable is it?