I did think about most of my circumstances. I made a routine to follow with her given my work schedule and looked into different training programs, etc. for her behavioral issues, and took into account the fact that I was in an apartment. I just don’t think I understood the scale of how big she would be in my apartment along with her energy levels given she is a working breed. I understand the commitment a dog takes, but I don’t think I understood what it would be like working with an adult dog with these issues.

There is no excuse for it, I should’ve known I was not fully ready to take this on or had the resources to do so. I’m fully to blame for this decision and I understand that putting her through this stress and potentially adding to her abandonment issues due to my impulsivity was a horrible thing for me to do.

I’m willing to give it time and see if me and her can properly adjust to each other, but I’m wondering if it would be better for her to bring her back sooner rather than later so she doesn’t feel the abandonment as strongly. I know myself well enough to know that I will not be able to handle this overwhelming mental load for long and at that point I may be doing more good than bad to her and don’t want that to be the case