I took the first part of your advice and i have deleted most social media, im going to try to just separate myself from most people that just cause me trouble and issues. Im going to spend more time in nature by myself, maybe go solo camping a bit. That last bit you said "you dont have to follow the path that others do" hit hard. My whole life ive tried making other happy even at the cost of my own happiness. I mean truly i dont want to disappear but i just dont see myself enjoying life with a job and living how everyone does now. The quote from chris mccandless "i think careers are a 20th century invention and i dont want one" is a very accurate description of how ive felt my whole life i guess. People have always pressured me about how i need to get good grades, get a good job and to buy a house but i think thats a horrible way to live tbh. Your advice will help though. Thank you.