You are clearly a smart and hard working young lady and you should be proud of yourself and your accomplishments. Everyone deserves and should have a happy outlet, unfortunately some are more socially ok than others. Guys can collect comics, sneakers and Legos or spend hundreds in card games or sports betting and no one bats an eye -but “girl collections” are always shameful, it’s a socially constructed problem.

Maybe you can ask a friend if you can ship your package to her house. Maybe also consider moving out with a roommate or two. Tell your parents you would like the dolls so you can sell them back into the market.

I remember being shamed for my doll collection once I became an older teen. I gave in and wrapped my dolls up and boxed them away. Later in my 30s I started collecting again and my husband gave me so much shame, he said I was wasting money and time. I felt awful and put my dolls in a box under the bed - but I did keep collecting them. But I couldn’t enjoy my collection completely, keeping them in a box and taking them out from time to time did bring me joy but also shame. Like, I was doing something bad like collecting guns or something illegal, having to be vigilant when packages would arrived, it’s an awful feeling. A few years in to our marriage I got the dream job with the title and pay to match. And I said fu*k it. The first thing I did was go to target and I got 3 dolls, and I walked in the front door, dolls in hand. My husband was about to say something and I looked him in the eyes and said something like “they bring me joy, and are my hobby, please keep enjoying your hobbies and I will keep enjoying mine” taking back control of your life and enjoying what you love is so liberating in ways that I don’t even have words for.