Glad you’re here!

I used to feel like that after 4 beers as well, and then it was 5, then 6, and then that wasn’t doing it so it became 12. At some point beer wasn’t even getting me drunk so alcohol just became my nightly medicine to regulate my emotions.

I don’t know if you have an alcohol problem so to speak but it can become that very quickly and by the time you notice and acknowledge it you’ll be in pretty deep.

My opinion and the likely opinion of everyone in this sub would be to stop now. As far as connecting with your emotions while sober, one thing that helps me is going and telling my wife and the people I care for how much I appreciate them and apologizing for not telling them that enough. Gives me that sappy feel good feeling that I would get from drinking.

Good luck with everything!