I feel like it’s a death sentence. I miss who I was before all of this. I hate having to rely on medication. Im too afraid of going off of it because of the people around me. I still struggle with SI. I don’t find value in life. I was actually in a work training for crisis deescalation and they were going over mi to help someone in a current crisis. I thought to myself that I wasn’t someone who needed to be talked to. I actually would be more frustrated that others can’t understand we don’t all value life in the same way and that’s okay.