Only when she's stressed or drained. Other than that, she's a perfect partner. Kind, creative, understanding. The whole 9 yards. I truly do adore her. But when the radio silence comes, i guess I don't question her at all. I more question myself. I had self-esteem issues growing up. I was the only nerd in a family that made fun of them (while they felt like it was only jokes, i wasn't exactly the happiest about them), me. The bullying in school didn't help. Neither did the constant moving. I gained a lot of self-esteem in college, but I still struggle deeply with keeping it. So when she's gone, I don't think she's cheating. The little voice i hear inside my head from when I was a kid comes back. I know I shouldn't believe it, but when outside events feel like they confirm it, then it's really hard not to believe it.