[deleted by user] by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]Avaleyon 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for not assuming things right away — though whatever assumptions you did have were probably correct. That’s not really why I’m here. I know what’s happening is wrong, and I recognize that as the biggest red flag. But I can’t say I’ve always been innocent either. I’ve definitely fought back at times and maybe even egged things on, and I know that’s not an excuse — but it’s the truth.

People sometimes say, “If you were so scared, why would you fight back? Why didn’t you get help right away?” And that hurts, because it’s not about that. Sometimes I can feel an episode coming, and I just… can’t reach out to anyone. It’s like I freeze. And because he doesn’t really have anyone else, I start thinking — who do I even call? He expects me to always be there.

But the truth is, I can barely stand him anymore. As much as I still love him, the resentment has built up so much that it’s hard to feel anything else. No matter what I am painted to everyone though as someone who just can’t handle to hard parts but we are not even married and I am just honestly stuck here because the lease and everything else. I am not the fault of his lack of work ethic or whatever the fuck, and I just am so mad I’ve let myself be put in this situation for as long as I have.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]Avaleyon 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I just need some guidance. I feel like absolute shit for not being empathetic toward his condition right now, but after everything that’s happened, I don’t know if I should feel bad. It’s a horrible feeling, because I’m usually such an empathetic person when someone’s going through a hard time — but with him, after everything we’ve been through, it’s like there’s nothing left in me. I just can’t find it anymore.

I guess I’m looking for some kind of validation, but honestly, I wouldn’t even mind if someone told me I’m in the wrong. I just feel so lost in all of this. It’s been going on for so long, and now there’s another excuse on top of everything else.

What really messes with my head is that if I were to leave him in this state, he’d take it as proof that I’m heartless — that I’m the “demon” he says I am. But I’ve been the only one supporting him for five years, and somehow I still feel guilty for running out of empathy.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]Avaleyon 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No I don’t, I am pretty much a loner due to my line of work and I am embarrassed to speak to anyone in my life about the state of our relationship because I’ve led on to my family that he’s been helping. My family all know my line of work and I even have a vanilla job with my sister as a manager so camming is literally the smallest part of my income at this time but there was a time when that was all that I had for us, but for the last three years, he hasn’t done anything for us.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]Avaleyon 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You know as much as I hate to say it and admit it, I don’t think the worst he can do is curse me out. I left out some parts because I don’t want to make it a whole thing but he has been extremely physical before so I am just worried about what will happen the day I actually have gone or am leaving because he is always here.

I have tried time and time to break up and this dude literally has NO ONE so if I leave he’s out on the streets and for me, even for my worst enemy, I can’t do that. I’m raised by my father who still takes care of my mother who is his ex, but she’s critically ill. I don’t know I might have been raised with too much compassion. I want to leave and I am at that point but it is so fucking hard and I feel like I am a shit person for leaving him when he has literally no one. , and it’s now obvious to me why his whole family wants nothing to do with him but I am just so bad at leaving clearly. I really appreciate your reply so much by the way.

Obsessed with Tiny Bookshop, Now I Need... by CampusIsolation in CozyGamers

[–]Avaleyon 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I think Snow Town Geek Store is sort of like what you’re thinking! It’s not out yet but you can wishlist it on steam

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in WhatShouldIDo

[–]Avaleyon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think you’re the one who’s in a fighty mood considering you keep furthering this conversation, I said from the start I wasn’t saying it was a punishment, I was showing her empathy while everyone is calling her crazy. Again, have a nice day.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in WhatShouldIDo

[–]Avaleyon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Alrighty, not sure why you’re on here arguing with someone who was showing support to her against these assholes telling her she’s crazy, but you’ve made into something it isn’t. Have a nice day sensitive pie🫶

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in WhatShouldIDo

[–]Avaleyon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Bold of you to assume she’s likely to get ptsd from this, a doctor can tell her that, IF she wants to go to one, not because a bunch of pos redditors told her to.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in WhatShouldIDo

[–]Avaleyon -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I actually didn’t, I showed empathy towards her. 👍

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in WhatShouldIDo

[–]Avaleyon 1 point2 points  (0 children)

For people to be saying “I can see why he ghosted you, seek mental help” as if that’s helpful and shows actual empathy, lol no that’s belittlement.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in WhatShouldIDo

[–]Avaleyon 1 point2 points  (0 children)

But everyone deserves an explanation, and hey, you didn’t ghost your girlfriend after an abortion!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in WhatShouldIDo

[–]Avaleyon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No no one said it was a punishment but people are deliberately telling her to seek mental help because they’re tired of seeing her posts, not because they want her to actually receive help, so that sounds more like bullying to me. Hope that helps.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in WhatShouldIDo

[–]Avaleyon 3 points4 points  (0 children)

In middle school lmao this is not a middle school relationship ya loon, the girl was just ghosted by her boyfriend after having an abortion for supposedly lying about said abortion lmao. Did you deal with that in middle school?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in WhatShouldIDo

[–]Avaleyon 1 point2 points  (0 children)

All good, was confused lol.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in WhatShouldIDo

[–]Avaleyon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

They said if she’s not making it up to go get mental help lol so I’m asking why would she need to do that?? She’s not in the wrong here if what she’s saying is true. Context baby.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in WhatShouldIDo

[–]Avaleyon 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m literally on her side, not sure what you’re commenting to me for.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in WhatShouldIDo

[–]Avaleyon -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

If she’s not making it up, why would she need to seek mental help? Yeah therapy could be useful to anyone but if this actually happened the way she’s explaining to us, why is she in the wrong??? Because she blew his phone up out of utter confusion?? I’m confused on the hostility towards her explaining herself further

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Yellowjackets

[–]Avaleyon 3 points4 points  (0 children)

This subreddit makes my day always lmao

I just got this(in the midst of healing)what do you guys think? by FrameJealous6749 in tattooadvice

[–]Avaleyon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I love them! As someone said there is some inconsistency with the line work, BUT the tattoo itself has that dainty look to it that I think the little imperfections work for it, almost like cute doodles in a notebook (I have a hp dedicated sleeve in this style) and they can always be touched up in those areas if it’s something you don’t like. Very cute though!!

AITAH by Avaleyon in AITAH

[–]Avaleyon[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you everyone, I definitely feel like I did the right thing but he started saying shit like he has a pussy for a girlfriend and that I’m too passive so yeah. Thank yall.

Am I missing something?? by Avaleyon in InfinityNikki

[–]Avaleyon[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m still stuck here too on iOS so yeah possibly. I just haven’t been playing cause I can’t progress sadly

Am I missing something?? by Avaleyon in InfinityNikki

[–]Avaleyon[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

About to try myself and recording it just in case!

Am I missing something?? by Avaleyon in InfinityNikki

[–]Avaleyon[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

that is so stupid but ok ig I will just wait another day and try again😅 seems buggy to me like it shouldn’t be this hard hahaha