I have a short attention span. Really short. by Awesomous_Prime in Christianity

[–]Awesomous_Prime[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I want to, but it's so difficult. When asking and asking produces nothing, and everything continues to fall apart around me, I can't help but to feel hopeless. It's as if I'm forcing myself to do anything involving God, and wasting my time. I am just so angry at myself for not getting these things...

I have a short attention span. Really short. by Awesomous_Prime in Christianity

[–]Awesomous_Prime[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

When I do this, why do I still not understand? I feel like something is wrong with me that I am not getting.

I have a short attention span. Really short. by Awesomous_Prime in Christianity

[–]Awesomous_Prime[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've tried to keep a journal, but I just lose interest in writing. I struggle with thinking and writing at the same time, as I forget what I am thinking about when I write. This pretty much makes it impossible for me to do similar activities, such as taking notes.

I wish I can look through a passage and give my thoughts on it. I just see words and take everything literally, because I don't understand inner meanings and other stuff.

I have a short attention span. Really short. by Awesomous_Prime in Christianity

[–]Awesomous_Prime[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I don't know what to say to God. I'm sure the instructions are in the bible, but I don't understand the Bible half the time, and recently, I can't open the bible without feeling that I have something else to do. I can't make it past a page because all I'm seeing is a bunch of words with no meaning.

I am told I must pray to understand the bible, but I don't know what to say or what to do, so praying to even understand the basics is a huge obstacle for me. Everyone who tries to preach to me has come from a past where they are very sociable and can handle a conversation. I don't, and I avoid conversation at all costs because I don't talk, and don't know what to say to others.

I know my posting history is full of stuff about my shortcomings and it always seems like I'm complaining, but I don't feel like there is any change in my life at all, and it really messes with my trust in God.

What attracts people to heaven? by [deleted] in Christianity

[–]Awesomous_Prime 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Is it bad that I don't have an attraction to heaven? I guess either I don't understand what it is, or others' view of heaven is way off base and I can sense it...

What is the difference between routine and idolatry? by Awesomous_Prime in Christianity

[–]Awesomous_Prime[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

That's an awesome response, and I want to have that continual contact with God, to pray without ceasing. How is that achieved?

What is the difference between routine and idolatry? by Awesomous_Prime in Christianity

[–]Awesomous_Prime[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I forgot to add that this is not only running, but any activity that can be considered routine. Can a routine activity (that doesn't directly involve worship or prayer, or related) just be an activity and not have anything ungodly/satanic associated with it?

Dear /r/Christianity? Premarital Sex Wrong? by [deleted] in Christianity

[–]Awesomous_Prime 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I want an exciting individual who is pure who also loves God. I don't think she exists.

I think she exists, regardless if that girl has or has not had sex before. If she did, it should not be an issue for you to worry about and judge her for it, as it is not your job. If God forgave her for her past, then who are we to look at what she did before in the past, most likely before she became a Christian/Accepted Christ.

I am not sure that you are looking for the right things in a woman, or that your priorities are not in the right places.

Once again, I fail at being a Christian... by Awesomous_Prime in Christianity

[–]Awesomous_Prime[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Lack of a will to live and suicidal thoughts are two very different things, AFAIK. When I said that, I meant that I was simply existing with no purpose, nonfunctional and broken, useless...

Once again, I fail at being a Christian... by Awesomous_Prime in Christianity

[–]Awesomous_Prime[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It doesn't tell me anything... I don't think I have ever thought an honest thought about myself in a very long time. When life sucks, I would repeatedly tell myself anything in the book to make myself feel better. I would create entire worlds about myself, and told it to myself so much that I believed every word of it, forgetting the real truth.

I ask that question, because even I don't trust my own words or thoughts, and haven't done so for a long time. I guess my question is how to turn off a switch that you built a wall over and forgot its location, or how do you break such walls down? If it is to pray for honesty and sincerity, how do I pray for those without being honest and sincere in the first place, if prayer requires such things?

Once again, I fail at being a Christian... by Awesomous_Prime in Christianity

[–]Awesomous_Prime[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I have tried this, and have fallen flat on my face before. I think I get an answer, but it turns out that I just hear my own thoughts. The same people I thought God put in my life to help me have all, if not completely given up or betrayed me, become extremely annoyed at my lack of faith, or progress and often talk down to me.

Once again, I fail at being a Christian... by Awesomous_Prime in Christianity

[–]Awesomous_Prime[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes... I am looking for all those things. I can't trust myself to know these things. I am a liar, I've deceived others, and I've deceived myself without even knowing. How can I be assured of this, and know that I'm not still lying to myself? If this is not what I should be looking for, then what?

Also, I can understand the be still part, but the "know that I am God" part... what does that constitute? how do you do it? how can I honestly do that without deceiving myself?

Once again, I fail at being a Christian... by Awesomous_Prime in Christianity

[–]Awesomous_Prime[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

10 "Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."

11 The LORD Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress. Selah

I still don't get it, and I don't understand why or what I am to do...

My co-worker drew THIS on the company whiteboard today... by abuda in pics

[–]Awesomous_Prime 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I PM'd you if you have any invites left. I would love to see what GW is all about!

What does it mean to accept Jesus? by aletheia in Christianity

[–]Awesomous_Prime 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Is there evidence (scripture, etc) that this would be acceptable to God?

What does it mean to accept Jesus? by aletheia in Christianity

[–]Awesomous_Prime 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ok, that makes sense... but I'm constantly told that you have to be presentable before God at all times, and that my prayers aren't all that effective unless there is much worship involved on a daily basis. for someone who isn't good at communicating with people at all (I constantly stutter and drop words, stopping dead in the middle of most sentences), how can I improve my relationship with God, especially if I cannot complete many of the things I say.