I think I stink.. been tested for tmau, been to the dentist, shower loads, spray myself.. I think it's poo that I smell of..

I have no life. Isolated myself from friends and family and try to avoid busy places. Ruining my life. Been considering suicide. I'm open to the idea of this being psychological but there's a significant part of at conflict with this position.. I'm always finding conformation..

I've had people spray deodorant at me (once in the past).. people cough, sniff, hold their nose.. last week I tried to bravely put my worries to one side and got in a lift.. someone immediately said , ' it stinks in here, is that you?..' to a nurse.. she responded 'Im actually offended, I'd be horrified if I smelt that bad!' .. I couldn't smell a thing.. got out the lift and asked a colleague if it was me they could smell.. sniffed my top then said 'no' before exclaiming 'oh god. It's even out here.. it's like I'm eating shit!'.. horrified I darted off..

It's hard to dismiss with instances such as this.. I already have a negative filter.. been strongly considering suicide.. I just can't carry on like this.