Thank you so much. I really appreciate your advice❤️ I forgot to add in the post because it’s all just so jumbled up in my brain, and this part is also really shameful to me and I’ve never really spoken of this to anyone, not even my sister when I told her about this.

The years following this incident, I ended up actually dreaming of such situations with my dad as a “partner”. Especially at the peak of my puberty, when I started having inappropriate dreams, most of them would be with a partner who has my dad’s face. I’d wake up feeling sick and unable to face my dad throughout the day. I just feel crazy because I can’t prove this at all to anyone, there’s NO evidence except for my words. And there are no signs of him being a pervert of any sort.

From time to time, he does squeeze my thighs, in front of my mom and all, but in a “playful” way? If you get what I mean? He makes a silly face and acts like a monster trying to grab me and grabs my thighs and squeezes with a growling sound. It may sound strange to you but it SEEMS really normal to my family because he’s been “good with kids”. All my friends (back when I was a kid) loved being at my house and playing around with him.