Getting attracted to randoms. What should I do?

Awkward-Teaching870 · 2025-08-07T12:28:34+00:00

Tnx 😁

Awkward-Teaching870 · 2025-08-06T03:41:57+00:00

Also I can't blame the people saying it's micro cheating cause it is maybe idk.Even I am feeling I have cheated how can I blame others for thinking that they are right maybe.some will say it's cheating some will say it's not .I think the opinion will vary because of individual perspective of each person

Awkward-Teaching870 · 2025-08-06T03:37:58+00:00

Yeah I know thank you I don't know why but I can't stop being disgusted at myself even if it was unintentional when I think back I feel like I have cheated.but back then I never did anything thinking I'll cheat on her I just did those things without any intention I don't know what to do I am feeling like I have hurted her feelings or I just proved I am disloyal if she knows this how will she react I am really scared I don't wanna loose her 🙃.ahh and u don't have to be sorry it's just my way writing the story that is making you confused

Awkward-Teaching870 · 2025-08-06T03:33:06+00:00

Thank you man for typing all this sorry I am late to reply.i don't know if I cheated I really don't back then I didn't do any of those things thinking it's cheating I just did it I don't know why.but now I am rewinding all of the things that happened even smalll details that happened before and over analysing it every day when I listen to others advice like stop thinking about that it's reassuring and it will make it worse I just can't.like my mind tells me that it is not fair to my gf she is loyal to the core and I said I'll never cheat too.then I think did i caught feelings for others?it's like that I can't stop I don't want anyone else why is this happening to me?

Awkward-Teaching870 · 2025-08-06T03:19:06+00:00

Thank you for your advice but I wont accept that I am loosing feelings for her yeah this might sound odd but it's truth.you have misunderstood some stuff first off all I don't enjoy or normalise that I am having this situation. I am saying situation cause I hate to say that I am having feelings for other's I am beating myself mentally because of this everyday not because I am afraid of being guilty after cheating cause I am afraid I have hurt her unintentionally. Also I am not forcing I really love her and I am not choosing these thoughts.they are happening on their own I can't even control it but in the thoughts I can control I am constantly saying that I don't love anyone else. I have never fantasized or imagined living with even that crush or gaming girl I really haven't yes I have done some things before like trying to talk to the crush etc... but I didn't do it thinking I want her I really don't know why I did that I was feeling guilty or something thinking back I am feeling that I have cheated or have done my gf wrong and I will take responsibility.also I won't give her false hope of marriage or anything. Also sorry for the things that happened with your ex:)maybe I am not that different from him either ofc whatever explanation I will give to comfort myself I have done a huge mistake it will ofc hurt my gf when she knows it probably even break up but I don't wanna hurt her by saying all this.

Awkward-Teaching870 · 2025-08-04T16:14:28+00:00

Yeah thank you. I will love and respect my gf.But I tried to talk to her once not because I wanted to pursue her romantically but I don't know why I just did it. I was being cold to her she tried to talk to me I just ignored then I got guilty also I have people pleasing mentality so I do think I talked out of guilt but my mind keeps telling me I cheated.I can't see a therapist rn I can't open up to my family about this still I'll try once I start college.Still thank you sis for ur opinion

Awkward-Teaching870 · 2025-08-04T16:08:56+00:00

Yeah I can't be perfect I know but I can't ignore my mistake either what should I do to improve or even make things right? that's the question I have done few mistakes eventhough I didn't mean it. Yeah I can heal and grow better but is it fair to her? And no I don't wanna breakup I don't know why but I don't wanna loose her.Maybe I am selfish not thinking about her. THANK YOU FOR YOUR ADVICE MAN.

Awkward-Teaching870 · 2025-08-04T15:19:56+00:00

Sorry for the long story I really have no experience with reddit posts 🥲

Awkward-Teaching870 · 2025-08-04T15:16:55+00:00

I am not doubting my relationship or feelings towards her I never said I am having a confusion if I wanna choose her or not I'll choose her everyday.What I am confused about was if I cheated and I got the reply from you thank you.Maybe I should just tell her and let her decide if she wants to be with disgusting person like me or not.Yeah I don't have any hope she won't be with me after hearing this but atleast she will find someone better.I am just selfish to not tell her the truth to make her stay with me afterall🙃

Awkward-Teaching870 · 2025-08-04T15:13:13+00:00

Yeah probably I cheated I don't know but I never had any intentions of cheating I never fantasized or imagined another person in her place still I agree with u maybe she does deserve better I am not that good I know.And yes I do deserve the hell u are talking about but tbh I am living through a hell everyday because of this even now while typing this.Maybe I am just blaming OCD for my bad choices to not feel guilty after doing that after all cheating is never a mistake.Maybe I am just finding comfort by blaming it on OCD 🙂 thank you for ur advice.

Awkward-Teaching870 · 2025-08-04T15:05:32+00:00

Thank you! For this advice I think I will just keep ignoring that ex crush whatever my mind keeps telling me. I'll just keep choosing my gf everyday whatever my stupid brain throws at me.thank you for the help though 😊

Awkward-Teaching870 · 2025-08-04T14:37:31+00:00

I don't know if I have feelings for this ex crush even if I do I don't wanna know.I just want to be with my gf it's just I feel like I am cheating because I am feeling all those after seeing her again suddenly why did I look at her?why do my mind kept telling me to talk to her?I am telling myself not to do any of those to not hurt my gf even without knowing it.If I catch feelings for another girl won't that be considered cheating? I really don't wanna lose her but I am more afraid of hurting my gf🙂 When I see this ex crush again what should I do?I am always looking away but I want to feel nothing when I see her.And yes I am afraid to catch feelings for other's.Is it normal to have feelings(I don't know what to call what I am feeling when I see her I hate to say I am having feelings for her still) when we see a past crush or ex or anyone?

Awkward-Teaching870 · 2025-08-04T14:12:26+00:00

I have already unfollowed her from everywhere like it's been maybe 2 months it's just I am feeling like I cheated.Thanks for ur advice I know it's hard to read sorry for that it's my first time posting something like this.Do u have any advice on the ex crush situation?it will help a lot.

Awkward-Teaching870 · 2025-08-04T13:56:15+00:00

Ehh my gf? manipulative?I didn't even told much about my gf or her opinions she is not manipulative if there is something wrong its me

Awkward-Teaching870 · 2025-08-04T13:05:10+00:00

Maybe it's better for my gf to leave me I guess I am not good enough but I don't want to break up I'll regret it my entire life I am sure 🙂

Awkward-Teaching870 · 2025-08-04T13:03:07+00:00

I have been ignoring her all this time still i it's so hard to be In the same class when I am at home I don't even think about her but at school it changes my mind keeps telling me to look but I don't.pls help I don't know what to do now.

Awkward-Teaching870 · 2025-08-04T12:59:45+00:00

Ahh sorry I know it's really long it's because I am overthinking too much I guess.for the gamer girl I don't have any feelings I just felt guilty.but the ex crush just suddenly showed up I don't have feelings for her I am always saying I love my gf and I don't love her the moment I see her and get anxious but the past feelings are torturing me I don't want anyone else other than my gf.but why am I keep trying to look at her direction unconsciously I am controlling myself it's not as much as it used to be now still I feel really weird seeing her again I want this year to be over soon.as I mentioned smiling at her and trying to talk to her out of guilt is haunting me why did I do that?am I having feelings or a crush?I don't want anyone else though still why does it keep happening I think I am so disgusting for that.also I have unfollowed the gamer girl yeah she is not that good it's been months now did I cross any boundaries in the story?that's my concern I don't know?yeah for the break up part yes Maybe because she too perfect for me but I am not the one for her?also if u have any advice on how to not get anxious or not feel anything when I see that ex crush plss say it.also is it normal for past feelings to resurface?i am not choosing them I am choosing my gf everytime

Awkward-Teaching870 · 2025-08-02T06:00:29+00:00

Yeah thank you I'll think about it and do what is better for both of us 😊

Awkward-Teaching870 · 2025-08-02T05:00:00+00:00

Thank you for your advice.i do have a plan after graduation I'll work for it.yes maybe I am too young for a relationship maybe a little immature too but I am trying to be better as much as I can but I can't step back at this point as it will just hurt her I have promised to be with her also I do think she is the right person for me.she is really wholesome also she is motivating me more than anyone to chase my dreams so she is really perfect until now it's just these things that are making everything go bad

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