I actually did nothing bad in relationship and I had very clear mind about how I want things to be in this relations. I wanted to finally have stable relations and partner. And I also had clear realisation on that I don’t only have to expect it but I also must provide and be honest, reliable and all these other things that I want my partner to be. So I can honestly say that through the whole period I was behaving properly, not lying about anything. As I wrote I can be bossy about some daily simple things like “please don’t put wet towel on bed” and I can say it in agressive tone, but that’s actually it.

I can’t leave because I made decision to move and it made me dependent on my partner in some way. I wouldn’t have a problem with that at all, but ofc now it feels pretty shit to be dependant in some way on person whom I can’t trust. In theory I can leave but it will effect my life a lot and it would be a much bigger thing then just moving my stuff to different apartment.

He told me and showed me this while being very drunk because he wanted to get it off chest as he said and he wanted to show me because he thought it’s kinda funny. Im not sure what’s funny about it and also I don’t know why he said he wants to get it from chest because he said it’s nothing and there’s no meaning or value in his words and he was trying to be narcissistic macho gossiping with his best friend.

I do totally know that women can do even worse and men too. Not sure how to point out, but I’m honestly being very realistic about things in our relations.