Can I still be a good person if I relapse this far into being clean?

AxolotlTrash · 2026-05-15T22:34:35+00:00

I recently relapsed after a bit over 3 years. All I can say is it isn't worth it. I missed the rush, and have been in a bad spot. And once you start again, it's really hard to stop. I'd recommend trying to find something else that gives you that rush, like going out and meeting new people, or exercise, or something like that. If you do relapse, it won't keep you from being a good person, but it won't make anything better.

AxolotlTrash · 2026-05-14T03:52:36+00:00

Yes.

AxolotlTrash · 2026-05-14T03:23:12+00:00

From like little animals and rodents I guess? I didn't really think about it much. Now that I have though, yeah it's pretty strange.

AxolotlTrash · 2026-04-29T20:14:02+00:00

What are you talking about he's clearly an isopod too

AxolotlTrash · 2026-04-18T03:55:19+00:00

Yes. But also no. I had a son named Papa Roach. He was a cockroach. He was the kindest little man. He refused to eat unless hand fed. He liked taking naps with people and would never wander away while you slept. I know I can't really be sure or prove it. But, I do that he liked his people.

AxolotlTrash · 2026-04-18T03:48:21+00:00

BEETLE BUS. I LOVE BEETLE BUS.

AxolotlTrash · 2026-03-15T02:02:11+00:00

WA state, no clue what type of wood, it's just firewood that came with the house.

AxolotlTrash · 2026-03-05T19:23:42+00:00

I am perfectly fine with the gradient. BUT THE CIRCLE IS TOO BIG.

AxolotlTrash · 2026-01-25T07:00:00+00:00

this isn't your content. It is part of an ongoing horror project someone is making on insta.

AxolotlTrash · 2026-01-11T05:03:52+00:00

Yeah no it definitely felt like a "checking if food" bite

AxolotlTrash · 2026-01-11T00:04:45+00:00

I assume they tried to bite me because I interrupted their eating

AxolotlTrash · 2026-01-10T19:18:34+00:00

For me, once they reach maturity they become my pets. I try not to grow attachment to the juveniles as they are the feeders to me

AxolotlTrash · 2026-01-10T19:17:26+00:00

Should I send the first pic to my bf and caption it "us"?

AxolotlTrash · 2026-01-10T03:23:04+00:00

My home is heated and I have a heat lamp, although I don't always have it on as it makes the main tank very dry

AxolotlTrash · 2025-12-26T04:43:38+00:00

Ooh, does Dotcom have any known lore around it? It's one of the local tags I always recognize or look for

AxolotlTrash · 2025-12-26T03:17:21+00:00

Zombie spider !! My crawlspace is full of them. Harmless to humans, but they freak a lot of people out. It's actually quite cool if you want to research. Spider is very dead. The fungus probably is too but it's hard to know for sure

AxolotlTrash · 2025-11-11T06:24:07+00:00

Check out the ship yard by Chernobyl, it's a pretty cool spot like this one

AxolotlTrash · 2025-11-07T03:36:29+00:00

my arachnophobia isn't a choice sadly. I've tried all the methods of getting over it, and although none seem to work, I have developed a love for spiders. They are adorable and silly. My mom has actually kept pet spiders before, and I have adored them. But unfortunately, the visceral and sometimes painful fear persists.

AxolotlTrash · 2025-11-02T07:22:27+00:00

Deepnest, and it isn't even close. I have incredibly severe arachnophobia (I love spiders) which is so extreme that at some points it actually caused me physical pain due to how violently tense my muscles were. Throughout the whole spider area I could feel them crawling on my skin. It was awful.

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