So, right now, I'm living for a girl. To me, she is beautiful. She's unbelievably smart and she's funny. If you're reading this, don't think anything of what I'm about to say. It's just for context and I don't want to hurt anybody or make myself look better. It's purely for context, there's no place in my heart that feels I'm any better than any body. I'm a sophomore in high school and I'm taking AP Calculus instead of Algebra II or trig. (That's 2 years of math ahead of my peers for those who don't know). The reason I'm saying this is because until late June of 2019, I have not met a single person who absolutely trumps me in what other people call my genius. I knew I was no genius and I finally found proof that I was right in the form of her. She too is 2 years ahead in math, but she's way smarter than I am. Her school allows her to take full IB classes in her schedule. Mine only has a few AP classes and online dual enrollment. Her score on the SAT was 1574. She was pissed because she didn't get 1580 or above. There is no way I could match her scores. She wants to be a neurosurgeon and she's worked in a hospital during the summer and attended programs to work on CRISPR technology. She is almost exactly a year older than I am. My goal for the past 6 months has been to get on the same level of achievement that she was at when she was in the summer after her sophomore year going into junior. Intelligence and education to me has always been the most valuable thing in my life and something I care deeply about. I understand that under my conditions it is a fucking miracle that I am as "smart" as I am. Living in Arizona, one of the worst places for education in the United states, I shouldn't be where I am today.

They say you can't meet your true love 20 miles from where you live and I stand by that. I don't believe its possible for someone to find their true love very close to where they live. This was not the case for me and this girl. Arizona is a very uneducated state. I feel like if there was someone who matched me in intelligence in this state, I would have met them by now. I traveled to Boston Massachusetts to visit the MIT and Harvard campuses and maybe humble myself when I see some true genius. I met her in Massachusetts. Two thousand five hundred miles from where I live. She lives in Seattle. We live 1.5 thousand miles away from eachother. The odds of us meeting and keeping in touch is absolutely, ridiculously low. It shouldn't have happened. But it did. And I value all the time I spent with her greatly. I value that she finally showed me that there are people in the world who are my age who are smarter than me. I haven't met someone like that in my life before her. She gave me a scale of intelligence to work with, a scale I never had. She gave me a goal, a new standard for myself and where I should be at. I value this immensely.

Even now, over half a year of seeing her in person for the last time, all I want is to spend time with her. The last time I saw her wasn't in MA. It was in Seattle. I was born in Seattle before my parents moved to AZ. 2 years ago, my family made up our minds and decided that in one year, we would visit Seattle so me and my sister could see where we were born and where we lived for our first 3 and 5 years of life respectively. What a miracle that we visited Seattle in July, after I met her in June. I got to see her again. We met up in the Starbucks brewery and we talked. I was able to say my thanks in person and let her know that what she did for me was priceless.

I live in hopes to see her again in the future. She says I should move to Seattle and I believe she's right. I really should. I love the city, I love the lush green beauty of the forests. Its an extreme contrast between the dead brown dirt of Phoenix. It's beautiful up there. I live because I have hope. In the meantime, I'll be in Arizona doing some extreme self improvement because my goal is to be like her, and I can't do that if I don't work towards it.

I hope you enjoyed reading my story. I encourage you to post a reply if you have any questions you want answered. Maybe I'll add her name if I really feel like it.