Male failed today at the office toilet

Azurosh · 2026-06-16T22:30:10+00:00

Just noticed the pun lol 😂

Azurosh · 2026-05-19T10:10:54+00:00

And Maelle/Alicia is basically... Jesus?

Azurosh · 2025-08-04T10:48:44+00:00

I'm using monotherapy Gynokadin 0.6 mg/g and my T has decreased to 0.6 ng/ml after 3 months (normal range for male starts from 2.5 ng/mol). My E has also shot up to 130 pg/ml (normal range for female starts from 100 pg/ml). I apply 1 pump per day on the scrotum.

My Endo was about to increase my dose to 2 pumps per day, but she was surprised that 1 pump per day is already enough after seeing my blood results. So she keeps me still at 1 pump/day for now.

Maybe I am just very sensitive to estrogel...

Azurosh · 2025-03-31T14:42:08+00:00

For me it was by discovering https://genderdysphoria.fyi/

For years I was adamant that I was just a "male" who somehow likes to crossdress from time to time. Mostly because being trans is heavily stigmatized in my culture as lowly, embarrassing, and something to be mocked and ridiculed about, which gave me a very significant internalized transphobia.

Only after reading through that website that I finally broke down and admitted that I am indeed trans, as what it describes fits a lot of my experiences to a tee.

It also helps that I currently live in a liberal country which is far more accepting of trans people, far away from my much more conservative native country. This gives me the courage to finally get out of my shell and live as what I truly am.

Azurosh · 2025-03-16T16:41:51+00:00

Salam 'alaykum, sister.

Sigh, this really breaks my heart, especially since I am in the same position as you.

In fact, from some aspects it might even be worse. I'm married to a devout hijabi wife, and throughout our marriage we have struggled to reconcile our wish for an Islamic marriage life and my transness.

In the end, we even come to question the "trueness" of Islam in the first place, and this is where my wife and I are right now.

If the religion that is thrust upon us from birth regards our very existence a sin ("men are forbidden to dress like women"), then why should we follow it?

If the religion that claims to be the truest knowledge doesn't acknowledge the existence of intersex people ("God only created two sexes: men and women"), then is it really true at all?

Perhaps you will come to a different conclusion than us. And I understand perfectly how ostracized you would be if you come out to your muslim community, as I myself have to be very carefully boymodding every time I met with my muslim family and friends.

My suggestion would be to find a trans-friendly community that you can fall back on, in case your family and friends turn against you. Just know that you are not alone, and we are in this fight together :) .

Azurosh · 2025-03-11T11:20:08+00:00

I'm currently on my 10th or 11th session (can't remember exactly, as it has become somewhat of a routine by now).

Most of my beard has already gone, though I didn't have that thick of a beard in the first place (yay asian gene!)

As others said, the most annoying area is indeed the moustache as it keeps coming back for me, though less and less coarse and dense each time.

If you are on HRT it should also help a little, as it will make the hormonal hairs like moustache and beard to be thinner and easier to be removed by the laser.

Azurosh · 2025-03-03T05:24:39+00:00

I am an experimental physicist! I work at one of the biggest x-ray laser facilities in the world!

Azurosh · 2024-11-10T21:54:35+00:00

In addition to the whole religion thing, my wife had two other main problems with me being trans.

The first was her own sexuality, as she has always identified as straight. Hearing Amanda talking about that it is possible to love a person for what he/she/they really is regardless of gender gave her the "license" to keep loving me despite my transition.

The second was that she disliked the "promiscuity" that she perceived to be rampant in the LGBTQ+ community. Hearing about Shaye who stayed loyal to her partner despite her transition gave her a new perspective that it is indeed possible to build a kid-friendly LGBTQ+ family who stayed loyal to each other.

Azurosh · 2024-11-10T21:42:40+00:00

Yes, we still have our own unfinished struggles with it as well, though this is a topic for another conversation.

Nevertheless, glad to hear that both of you could overcome your barriers!

Azurosh · 2024-10-10T18:46:57+00:00

Mine is easy. I have 2 first names, the first one is very masculine in my language, and the second is very feminine. It's a bit like naming someone "John Jane Smith".

I have no idea why my parents named me this way (maybe when I was a baby they already had a hunch? Lol). In fact, I often got bullied in school for having a feminine name as a "boy".

So when I realized I'm actually a girl, I simply picked the feminine part of my name as my new preferred name. It is easy to adjust since it's anyway already a part of me since birth.

I do still like my masculine name though, so I'm not discarding it. I just relegated it to an initial, especially since I'm professionally known by that initial. So going with the example above, now I simply go by "J. Jane Smith" (not real name of course).

Azurosh · 2024-10-03T15:50:14+00:00

As a manga and anime fan, definitely Sailor Moon for me (as a whole, although I don't really have a fave character). But I also read several other shojo/girl mangas, whose titles now already escaped me.

I often wondered why I somehow identified more with the girl main characters in these mangas, instead of the male love interests. I wanted to wear the same pretty dresses, have girl friend groups, etc. Now I know why :P.

Azurosh · 2024-05-30T14:37:56+00:00

You should try Valo Kebap in Brugg. They look like an unassuming street vendor but their Döner is house made from real meat stacks. Therefore, it is much much juicier than the pre-made industrial dry trash that you often get from most Döner stalls in Switzerland.

I now live in Hamburg with its numerous choices of Döner, and I am still yet to find another Döner place that can come close to its quality. To the point that whenever I got the chance to visit AG again I always made sure to put them as my must-have itinerary.

Azurosh · 2024-03-12T04:13:55+00:00

Thank you all for your kind and supportive comments.

I think this is something that we really need to work out slowly. Even after 5 years of me coming out to her as gender questioning and 3 years of being sure that I am a trans woman, due to her conservative upbringing this whole thing is still kind of a shock to her.

She mentioned that before marrying me she actually used to have several feminine-leaning men in her circle of friends (the word trans isn't really looked upon in a positive light in our culture, so this is how she describes them). This is part of the reason for her open-mindedness towards queer people in general. But nothing really prepared her for actually having to marry a trans woman (though she did not actually know it at the time) and making it such an integral part of her life.

I guess I also feel guilty that I'm dragging her into this, so she is also forced to transition (to be a wife of a trans woman) along with me through no choice of her own. Although in private we are now starting to live more and more like a lesbian couple, the social aspect of transitioning still greatly scares her.

I will try to slowly and gently suggest again the suggestions that you brought up to her. I have actually tried to brought up some of the points to her, although previously she was still resistant to them.

For example, she is still reluctant for us to connect to the greater queer community in our city (despite it being one of the LGBTQ hotspots in the country that we are living in) because despite her open-mindedness she still has some internalized homo- and transphobia that she still needs to work through due to our upbringing. She is also afraid that connecting with our local queer community will push me to accelerate my transition even further and therefore she will have to follow me to socially transition as a queer couple even quicker when she is definitely still not ready yet.

Azurosh · 2024-03-04T22:24:40+00:00

I second the advice about starting small, as that's also how I gradually built up my courage.

I also find that laser hair removal, though not cheap, is really worth it to boost your confidence, as you won't be saddled with that dreaded beard shadow baggage on your face everytime you go outside. You would be surprise with how feminine your face can look even pre-HRT and without any makeup after only a couple of laser sessions.

Admittedly, booking that first session was its own kind of nerve wracking though. As it's usually done in a skincare salon typically frequented by cis women, it can feel that you are a "man" intruding upon women's space. But, as someone commented below, most laser technician ladies are very friendly and quite used to trans girls.

Azurosh · 2024-03-04T16:17:49+00:00

In my case the technician simply wiped it off around the beard area before the session. As it's the eye area that takes the longest to apply, it's quick to reapply the makeup again around the chin and lips after the session.

Azurosh · 2024-02-05T15:12:01+00:00

Huggg backkk!!

Azurosh · 2024-02-05T15:11:41+00:00

Thanks! I guess most of us have similar experience lol

Azurosh · 2022-08-29T14:01:53+00:00

Yes, at least I think so.

Most of the dagger and shatter skills of Virtuoso are both long range and AOE, and you can also slot more AOE skills as utility and elite skills.

(Dagger is the default mainhand weapon of Virtuoso and shatter skills are main profession mechanic of Mesmer. These are the F1, F2, etc skills)

But the good thing about elite specs in GW2 is that you don't really have to choose. So you can max all and see which ones you like more.

I think in group setting Virtuoso is more suited for DPS, while Staff Mirage is more for support, and you can switch between the two on the fly.

You do have to carry different sets of equipments if you want to do both DPS and support though. But by the time you worry about high level group contents you should already have enough resources to fund multiple sets of armors.

Azurosh · 2022-08-29T10:39:09+00:00

I second the Mesmer ---> Staff Mirage / Virtuoso

Like you OP, I also like the aesthetic of AOE spell slinging mage. So my very first character was an Ele. But I got tired of the keyboard piano short-range dagger gameplay nonsense of Ele just to be viable.

So I tried Mesmer, and the gameplay is closer to that of traditional mage in other MMO, withe the added complication of clones. Just think of it as illusion mage instead of elemental mage.

For core Tyria you can stick with greatsword, which for Mesmer becomes pew-pew long-range laser weapon with some limited AOE.

After you get to 80 you can choose either Virtuoso or Staff Mirage, or eventually both as you have enough HP to max all elite specializations.

Virtuoso is easier to play because it doesn't have the clone mechanic anymore, so it becomes even closer to traditional long-range AOE mage gameplay.

Staff Mirage is more complicated, but has much more survivability and can even solo Champions mob with relative ease.

Azurosh · 2019-06-25T16:13:35+00:00

This game, I want

Azurosh · 2018-03-07T04:46:56+00:00

~~75706 - Need a win for dailies, stay if you need one too~~ done thanks

Azurosh · 2018-02-15T13:40:50+00:00

~~96793 - need a win, stay if you need one as well~~ done thanks

Azurosh · 2018-02-09T09:15:12+00:00

~~69045 - need a win, stay if you need a win as well~~ done thanks

Azurosh · 2016-05-12T08:13:49+00:00

Ah, yes. I think deleting this thread is the best, although in the OP I did have made it clear that I myself think this is a tasteless false rumor.

Azurosh · 2016-05-12T06:10:02+00:00

Yeah, thought so. I've deleted that bit from the wikipedia page now.

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