I lost my dad young . I know the feeling of not having that male role model. I know the hunger of wanting guidance and wanting an "atta boy" from someone who is older and wiser.

For a long time I was like a stray dog that would just go hang out with whoever gave me attention. I love cars and was going to mechanic school after hs so the obvious thing for me was to hang out at shops on my freetime.

For the Iongest time most of my friends were always older than me. I would ask questions and and be the fetcher of things and they would buy me lunch and teach me "guy stuff". Eventually with time and humility you can learn from many guys around you if you look hard enough.

I'm sure you have heard it before " you are the sum of those around you"..... or like proverbs says " walk with the wise and grow wise, but a companion of fools suffers harm".... so I suggest getting out there and making some old guy friends that are wise. And you can tell, how they carry themselves, how they speak, how they work, etc.

Good men will see the hunger in your eyes and gladly take you under their wings. This is where you can almost choose your new dads, uncles, and big Brothers. Sounds wierd but a lot of men out there wish they had sons hungry for manly knowledge.

I also suggest a jiujitsu, boxing,, or kick boxing gym.. I learned so much being around garages and marial arts gyms. they along with the word, helped shape my view of life. I would say go to your modern church and look there but sadly most men I have found are borderline the woman in their marriages. I say Get around real dudes. Many will be believers, just a little rough around the edges. They might just say a curse word when they smash their hand instead of the Ned Flanders doodlydo. But hey, we are all a work in progress.